Back from field camp.... hmm.... fun experience? haha... maybe without the leopard crawling and high kneeling..... lol... 6 days of combat rations.... haha... the biscuits taste better than the meal rations lar... Spent my first hour of valentines' day doing guard duty with edd somewhere in the middle of tekong where "there was no light".... The stars are pretty nice at night though, could see a lot more stars than in sg.... On the night of valentines' day, we got "turned out" at 4am and route-marched to our next camp-site... okay, theoretically it's not longer valentines' day, but well, so much for a valentines' day present.... Leopard crawling on rocks gives u abrasion and high kneeling in FBO gives u a very painful knee, but somehow i made it through bic on the last day and got back alive, a miracle that the abrasions did not get infected though i didn't bath or wash them regularly... hmm.. a little recap on last week, did live range and had regimental guard duty at.............. the all-famous ammo dump.... haha... but i didn't see anything lar.... however, the story bout the special camera being covered by white cloth is true apparently, at least according to the specs tht were on duty then... well... tht's all on army.... i guess army life really makes u appreciate being a civillian a lot more... nvr knew music sounded so beautiful b4, nvr really did appreciate the freedom to OTOT as a civillian and stuff.. One thing good bout the army though, it keeps you super fit and healthy.... I clocked my first sub-10 2.4km timing in my entire life even without putting in full effort (was reserving some energy for some running training after the IPPT) and i have no probs getting up super early in the morning and keeping awake throughout the day....

Lol.. in any case, Happy CNY everybody! back to the field after CNY for sit test and then 16km route march coming up too... From another perspective, BMT is halfway through already.... hmm.. finally, good luck for a level results everyone! Praying tht it doesn't come out during sit test though....

This video is totally classic...

一身黑皮肤 白手套 红短裤
一双大大耳朵 随时在 向人打招呼
他是我朋友 陪我笑 陪我哭
尤其是 当我最无助 有他听著我倾诉

梦中城堡里面跳舞
醒了世界依然残酷

以为我爱著孤独
以为自己不会迷路
以为自己跟自己再不用谁照顾
以为我爱著孤独
却又崩溃的无助
谁能让我拥抱著尽情的哭

让我唯一的朋友不是老鼠

谁是草莓族 你才是榴连族
一身伤人顽固 伤害我还要我不哭
摩天轮停住 咖啡杯不跳舞
孩子练习著 让悲伤麻木
快乐也开始麻木

the song that lulls me to sleep every night.... i'm just amazed at how different reality can seem from different perspective.... field camp next week, so the next time i book out, it'll be CNY.... see u all then! or maybe, i'll get to book out for a level results....haha

They can say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow
Anyone to succeed
Hanging clouds over me

And they can try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams

CHORUS:
'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me From me

They can do anything they want to you
lf you let them in
But they won't ever win
If you cling to your pride
And just push them aside
See I have learned there's an inner peace I own
Something in my soul
That they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid
And darkness will fade

'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me

No...They can't take this Precious love
I'll always have inside me
Certainly the Lord will guide me
Where I need to go

They can say anything they want to say
Try to break me down
But I won't face the ground
I will rise steadily
Sailing out of their reach

Oh Lord They do try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams
'Cause there's a light in me that shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me

[Mariah Carey- Can't Take That Away]
I'll remember.... not just for you.. but for myself too... and no one can take that away...

I guess the song sums up everything i have to say on my new life. My aim for the next 2 years: staying focused and not to lose direction...

Tears for what you have lost
Tears for what you will gain
Tears of sadness, tears of joy,
Having tears makes you human, makes you alive, makes you realise that you can feel...

I've never thought beyond that time
I've never imagined the pictures of that life
For now I will try to live for you and for me
I will try to live

with love,

with dreams,

and forever,

with tears....

12 hours and counting..... So much to do, so little time...

Endless Rain by X-japan. Composed on 1 dec 1989, a long 17 years ago. One can only marvel at yoshiki's vision and foresight...... No endless rain for field camps though, i hope...

Here's the vidoe of Sometimes love just ain't enough by the original singers. hmm... I'm looking for the mp3, so if anyone has, pls send me!

Perhaps to answer hammy's qn, i think i explore youtube categorically.. haha

Been thinking about how this blog has evolved, on how it seems to fall further and further away from its initial purpose and on how the freedom of expression became the restriction of expression. The only good left, it seems, is the "promoting good music" factor. Hence, perhaps this could explain my reluctance to put anything substantial up here anymore. This blog has served its purpose.... hmm... rather, it has failed to. In the new year, I guess I wouldn't have anything much to post anyway, it'll be like book in and book out dates...haha.. In any case, i'll be keeping the "good", tht is putting up good songs.

k, the bg song this time is X-Japan's Tears. I always like to point out to people that this is a song about love, but not about romantic love. I'll post the english part of the lyrics here, the jap part and its translation, u all can look it up on the internet.

Loneliness, your silent whisper
Fills a river of tears through the night
Memory, you never let me cry
And you, you never said goodbye.
Sometimes the tears blinded the love
We lost our dreams along the way
But I never thought you'd trade your soul to the fates
Never thought, you'd leave me alone

Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory
Love everlasting fades away
Alive within your beatless heart
Dry your tears with love (2x)

Yoshiki wrote this song in memory of his father who committed sucide when he was young. Perhaps seeing the song this way would give u a better appreciation of it. Rite, tht's all from me and for the first time, a full stop feels much more natural than a endless line of dots.

Out of Control. Terminated.