arh... it's the last day of the cny break already. So sad... been eating a lot of goodies these few days, reunion dinner was 7 dishes with soup, 初一 was buffet at my house, 初二 was buffet at my grandma's house and 初三 would be buffet at richard's house... add to that all the cny snacks u get normally, woot...what a feast!...

Besides the normal eating and gambling, cny is also a time where u get to watch a lot of movies on TV. hmm... but i still prefer watching movies alone or with very few ppl coz wit ha lot of ppl, the atmosphere is sometimes not there. Imagine watching a break-up scene when a grp of ppl beside u playing blackjack is egging the banker to go bust, u get wat i mean..... oh.. i watched ff7 on dvd yest and i have to say tht tifa is damn chio (yes, i knoe she's a cgi), but still.... can't deny the wonders of technology....

The daunting prospects of returning to sch- mock SPA and gp presentation...

Reunion dinner in a few hours time, so stole some time to come and blog.... CNY celebrations yest was crap, normal by RJ standards however, so j1s have to get used to it... CO played 中原锣鼓 and screwed up, obviously, with only 2 pracs and no rehearsals. haha, but i think the audience didn't care and we had fun playing so it was good :) After the performance, went down to j8 yakun for breakfast with the 2b gang, meeting up with richard on the way. Went to check movie timings and due to violent objections against jack neo and zhang ziyi, we settled for jet li's fearless. Started killing time to wait for the movie to start, walked around j8 and we even went back to rj to play cards. The movie was okay lar, though comments from others were like "overkill". The last part was quite nice though.... Losing when u could have won, to make the winner realise that.... winning is not everything....

After the movie, went to S11 for early dinner as we skipped lunch due to our late breakfast. Then we headed down to deng's place for mahjong. Though i was supposedly lacking sleep and lagging, i trashed the others... highlights include a 清一色， a 平胡 and a 花上.. finally reached home at 9+pm, feeling damn exhausted....


你給我一個秘密　讓我觸摸到星星
在一個夏日夜裡　走入了你的森林
聆聽著你的呼吸　世界就睡在夢裡
孤單都已經離去　只留下
天和地　我和你　永遠在一起

看著我的眼睛　為什麼要哭泣
那幸福太容易　讓我不敢相信

一起穿一件雨衣　後座你抱的好緊
風雨中美好回憶　愛過的那些歌曲
有一天再也不聽　我想你知道原因
黑夜終究要黎明　如果我　
如果你　天一亮　要往哪裡去

看著我的眼睛　為什麼要哭泣
那幸福太容易　讓我不敢相信
勾勾手蓋手印　這一刻有約定
那愛情變美麗　因為我開始相信
yeah~~

故事的最後結局　結束在那年冬季
孤獨的冰冷夢裡　於是我問問自己　
還能不能夠相信　另一段愛情靠近　
La~~La~~La~~
現在是２００１　永遠的２００１
跟想像有點距離　我將他唱在歌裡　
曾經屬於我們的相信　
希望我們永遠都不要忘記

[相信-五月天]

Happy CNY everybody!!

I was a midnight rider on a cloud of smoke
I could make a woman hang on every single stroke
I was an iron man
I had a master plan
But I was alone

I could hear you breathing
With a sigh of the wind
I remember how your body started trembling
Oh, what a night it's been
And for the state I'm in
I'm still alone

And all the wonders made for the Earth
And all the hearts in all creation
Somehow I always end up alone
Always end up alone

So I play, I'll wait
'Cause you know that love takes time
We came so far
Just the beat of a lonely heart
And it's mine
I don't want to be alone

Well, since I got no message on your answer phone
And since you're busy every minute.
I just stay at home
I make believe you care
I feel you everywhere
But I'm still alone

I'm on a wheel of fortune with a twist of fate
'Cause I know it isn't heaven, is it love or hate
Am I the subject of the pain
An I the stranger in the rain
I am alone

And if there glory there to behold
Maybe it's my imagination
Another story there to be told

So I play, I'll wait
And I pray it's not too late
We came so far
Just a beat of a lonely heart
And it's mine
I don't want to be alone

And all the wonders made for the Earth
And all the hearts in all creation
Another story there to be told

So I play, I'll wait
And I pray it's not too late
We came so far
Just a beat of a lonely heart
And it's mine
I don't want to be alone

Gone, but not out of sight
I'm caught in the rain and there's no one home
Face the heat of the night
The one that you love's got a heart that's made of stone

Shine and search for the light
And sooner or later you'll be cruising on your ocean

And clean out of sight
I'm caught in the rain and there's no one home

[Bee Gees- Alone]

The reason ppl dun like to be alone, apart from the connotation with anti-socialness, is the pristine clarity of thoughts they experience when they are alone. Humans are apparently delusional animals, that's why the clearer a thought, the more unacceptable it is to him. It is easy to be caught up in the interaction with others that one leaves no time for his/her own thoughts. Everything said, done and even felt are just regurgitations of what someone said, done and felt before. In this way, we are no better than robots, unfeeling but sophisicated.

Alone is a concept rather than a state, it's formulated by humans for humans to understand ourselves. Unfortunately, it has been shunned by today's superficial society. Until we learn to be alone, we would be livng our lives through the words, actions and feelings of others.....

喜欢用我的音调 唱出你的味道
这一秒 有种感觉甜蜜的发酵
一百种言语知道 爱有一个声道
才明了 是你眼神传来的暗号
太多的幸福报到 拼凑爱的美妙
笑一笑 投入你怀里然后撒娇
不需要别人来教 把爱紧紧抓牢
这一秒 决定拥抱你给的美好

爱情是你独特的味道 在我的心中围绕
别人都不了 只有你知道
因为你 世界不再单调
我的微笑 你明白就很好

你就像月亮绕著轨道 拥抱著地球闪耀
在我的星球 写下惊叹号
有了你世界神魂颠倒
你的微笑 编织了每一个奇妙

[F.I.R.-你的微笑]

Song by FIR tht one of the contestants sang during campus superstar on mon. She sang quite well, though in the end she got eliminated. lol, apart from the a little "weird" opening, the song is quite nice lar.... While on the campus superstar website checking the results just now, noticed that the ri guy's guestbook is filled with flaming comments from ppl from acs apparently. lol, does inter-sch rivalry have to go tht far? Judging from what i heard from j1s bout acs guys being discriminated against during orientation and in class, i'm afraid the answer is a "yes", in which i can't find reasons to justify. At least to me, inter-sch rivalry is nonsense, each sch trying to put down others so tht it can be superior. My question: what for?

因为你 世界不再单调
我的微笑 你明白就很好...

下了几天的雨，终于等到了晴天。雨天时，盼望温暖的阳光，但晴天时，却想念那细细的雨滴。

晴天来了，但雨天乌云的阴影仍然依旧....

故事的小黄花 从出生那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千随记忆一直晃到现在
ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
吹着前奏 望着天空 我想起花瓣试着掉落
为你翘课的那一天花落的那一天
教室的那一间 我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天我好想再淋一遍
没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开

刮风这天 我试过握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐 大到我看你不见
还要多久我才能在你身边
等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
从前从前 有个人爱你很久
但偏偏 雨渐渐 把距离吹得好远
好不容易 又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像说了拜拜

brr.. it's cold... halfway through econs essay... tot i come up here for a while coz a thought just hit me... perhaps i ought to be more appreciative and less critical. what mr lim said about finding the effort to say something good about someone captures the essence but ain't exactly the best way to go about doing things... point being, now tht in j2, being "mean" to ppl becomes much easier to the extent tht it being terrifying.... the guilt tht follows also vanishes much faster with the reassurance of "this is how rj works"... Hardened... i guess tht's the word to describe it, but well, my 4 years of studying lit tells me to "stay gold".... i hope to...

lost in the sea of waking dreams...

sick.... down with flu.... clocked 24 hours of sleep in the past 2 days.... The weather's real nice though, continuous rain and a chilling wind to go with it... Listening to Jay Chou's album throughly now... Just found out that 枫 is maple... So wat's the big deal? Nothing.... just tht maple trees are damn chio in autumn... check this image out and u'll get wat i mean
Maple

Now... add a little bit of snow into the picture and u'll get wat jay chou is trying to portray....

在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随着北风凋零
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想 唤醒被遗忘的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰...

On white slips and cards

Cards in RJC make an ironic comeback in times when the authorities call for stricter disciplinary measures. While the female students complain about the authorities lack of trust in their taste and discretion in dressing and a cetain teacher who white-slipped 8 ppl in a single day, an apparent or delibrate slip up by the authorities has set the rumour mills churning. The iron rule "Playing all forms of card games is prohibited in College" in handbook 2005 has been replaced by a meek "no gambling of any form allowed", leading us to think if this might be a softening of stance against the playing of card games. However, in times when 3 white slips warrant a phone call to parents, i would rather toe the line than jump the gun. An official statement to clarify would be much desired. Let us all hope that cards make a true comeback this time, in truly ironic fashion....

The Name of Life playing in bg.... sounds kind of jazzy to me....

Reprise- [verb] to repeat (esp a musical theme)
[noun] resumption of an earlier subject

Itsumo Nando Demo

Yondeiru Mune no Dokoka Okude
Itsumo Kokoro Odoru Yume wo Mitai

Kanashimi wa Kazoekirenai kedo
Sono Mukou de Kitto Anata ni Aeru

Kurikaesu Ayamachi no Sonotabi Hito wa
Tada Aoi Sora no Aosa wo Shiru
Hateshinaku Michi wa Tsuzuite Mieru keredo
Kono Ryoute wa Hikari wo Dakeru

Sayonara no Toki no Shizukana Mune
Zero ni Naru Karada ga Mimi wo Sumaseru

Ikiteiru Fushigi Sinde Iku Fusigi
Hana mo Kaze mo Machi mo Minna Onaji

Yondeiru Mune no Dokoka Oku de
Itsumo Nando demo Yume wo Egakou

Kanashimi no Kazu wo Iitsukusu yori
Onaji Kuchibiru de Sotto Utaou

Tojiteiku Omoide no Sono Naka ni Itsumo
Wasure takunai Sasayaki wo Kiku
Konagona ni Kudakareta Kagami no Ue nimo
Atarashii Keshiki ga Utsusareru

Hajimari no Asa Shizuka na Mado
Zero ni Naru Karada Mitasarete Yuke

Umi no Kanata niwa Mou Sagasanai
Kagayaku Mono wa Itsumo Koko ni
Watashi no Naka ni Mitsukerareta Kara

English translation

Always with Me
Somewhere, a voice calls, in the depths of my heart
May I always be dreaming, the dreams that move my heart

So many tears of sadness, uncountable through and through
I know on the other side of them I'll find you

Everytime we fall down to the ground we look up to the blue sky above
We wake to it's blueness, as for the first time

Though the road is long and lonely and the end far away, out of sight
I can with these two arms embrace the light

As I bid farewell my heart stops, in tenderness I feel
My silent empty body begins to listen to what is real

The wonder of living, the wonder of dying
The wind, town, and flowers, we all dance one unity

Somewhere a voice calls in the depths of my heart
keep dreaming your dreams, don't ever let them part

Why speak of all your sadness or of life's painfull woes
Instead let the same lips sing a gentle song for you

The whispering voice, we never want to forget,
in each passing memory always there to guide you

When a miror has been broken, shattered pieces scattered on the ground
Glimpses of new life, reflected all around

Window of beginning, stillness, new light of the dawn
Let my silent, empty body be filled and reborn

No need to search outside, nor sail across the sea
Cause here shining inside me, it's right here inside me

I've found a brightness, it's always with me

[Always With Me- Youmi Kimura]

2005's gone, 2006's here.... I've got no resoulutions, no point promising stuff u can't do and in the end get all upset about it... This year, marks the last year of formal education, and i think it's time to think through what u want to remember from your schooling life, and then stay focused in the final attmpt to achieve them... Often, we try to create happiness, not knowing that happiness cannot be created, rather they are discovered just like companion, sadness... So, sometimes, instead of going in circles searching, stand and look within yourself, and as the last line of the song shows: I've found a brightness, it's always with me

That said, Happy New Year!