I find it amazing how I'm able to separate emotions from actions now... Must be the organisation... Anw, bad things come after one another, it's quite true i guess... However, the diff this time is tht instead of cursing my luck or watever, i was strangely resigned, perhaps i saw it coming... But u know, life has a funny way of showing tht it's not playing with marked cards. Look hard enough and you'll see silver linings...

The festive season is here again, but u know... being in the organisation takes a bit of the festive cheer away eh.. but oh well, at least it taught me a few things, like cherishing the ppl around who care for you.. :P i dunno if i would do a round-up for the year like i always did cos i seriously have lost the touch for blogging as u can see from the disappearance of my usual narration/reflections type of post i used to post so much last year... oh well... one thing hasn't changed though, the promotion of music through this blog :) This time, it's a theme song from witch yoo hee... The pachelbel connection is all too obvious and for k-pop fans, this sounds a little rip-off from KISS greatest hit "Because I'm a Girl" Still, this song has little bit of christmasly feel, u knoe like the classic "this i promise you" from N'Sync, so there...

When RJCO concert at esplanade ended last year, my blog entry then likened it to an amputation.

It feels like an amputation.... a sinking sense of loss... But what's coming
across is not sadness, rather it's a sense of victory.... akin to a soldier
returning from the battlefield after winning a war......

Then, as RICO's tribute concert for Yang Lao Shi ended on Fri, the same feeling came back- amplified. I guess it's a longing to return to a familiar world that mattered a lot b4. Tht it was a tribute concert for Yang Lao Shi made it even more meaningful as he was the one who sowed the seeds and sparked the passion that burned till today. Watching the juniors go through the pre-concert routine opened a floodgate of memories, memories that serve to only evoke nostalgia now, cos they can never be again. Still, I'm grateful for the oppurtunity to be able to relive the memories, to recover a part of me that has been slowly corroded away in the past year.

你的姿态
你的青睐
我存在在你的存在
你以为爱
就是被爱
你挥霍了我的崇拜

我活了 我爱了
我都不管了
心爱到疯了 恨到算了
就好了
可能的
可以的
真的可惜了
幸福好不容易
怎么 你却不敢了呢

我还以为我们能
不同于别人
我还以为 不可能的
不会不可能

你的姿态
你的青睐
我存在 在 你的存在
你以为爱
就是被爱
你挥霍了我的崇拜

我活了 我爱了
我都不管了
心爱到疯了 恨到算了
就好了
可能的
可以的
真的可惜了
幸福好不容易
怎么你却不敢了呢

我还以为我们能
不同于别人
我还以为 不可能的
不会不可能

你的姿态
你的亲赖
我存在 在 你的存在
你以为爱
]就是被爱
你挥霍了我的崇拜

风筝有风
海豚有海
我存在 在 我的存在
所以明白
所以离开
所以不再 为爱而爱
自己存在 在你之外

[梁静茹 - 崇拜]

Hikaru Utada!!! Fantastic song.... What makes it even better is tht she wrote this at the age of 16....

Saigo no kisu wa
Tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Anata wa doki ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugokidasou to shiteru
Wasuretakunai koto bakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naiteru
Anata wo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever

[Utada Hikaru - First Love]

very busy for the past 2 weeks and will be busy for the next week too i guess... Booking in later for guard duty... sianz.... oh... my birthday went past last week... thks to all who sent messages and gave preents :) really appreciated them!