Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Just a thought while studying econs... If the presence of morals, values, religion, science and technology etc. makes us human, then won't the prevalence of the free market economy or capitalism reduces us back to animals?...
lolz, i haven't finished mugging yet...though in my last post i'd said i'll do econs last, but decided that i should spend more time on the subject that i obtained an Outstanding by Harry Potter's standard for the CTs to try to "improve" it to an Acceptable level. The key word here....is try....

oh yeah...TNP seems to take special interest in stories tht involve the top boy's secondary sch or a top girls' sch in the orchard road area... todae's headlines read "Public caning for boy who 'badmouthed' teacher online"... No prizes for guessing which sch the boy was from..... hmmm...only consolation is perhaps tht they put the word "badmouthed" in quotes, though probably it's because badmouthed is slang....

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Promos are near, very near.... Looked thru past yr papers....only physics looks easy enough...chem department is a miser with marks, the math departments sets paper with the sole aim of wearing you down mentally so that you won't last 3 hours and for econs, i solve it after i settled the other three subjects first...haix...time for intensive mugging...

it's not that i dun care, it's just that u dun knoe i care....

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

当寒风吹过,
不知是冷,还是心凉了...
当闪电划过,
不知是看到了,还是再也不会看到...
当雨点掉下,
不知是老天在可怜我,还是在讥笑我....

Monday, September 19, 2005

Within a nightmare and yet relishing every moment of it..... coz the apparent truth- that it is just a figment of imagination is somehow harder to bear....

Saturday, September 17, 2005

但愿人常久,
千里共婵娟。

The theme for yest mid-autmun festival celebrations... First time playing drum set, and only having 2 practices, and u can guess the result- screwed up... lol, and an open arena setting didn't help us either, but tht's besides the pt coz the atmosphere was quite nice...very relaxing... The moving of instruments from Co room to the parade square reminded me of the times we had to move instruments from the "storeroom" to below the design block. Anw, while moving instru on the 2nd storey walkway outside the hall, pointed out to xl tht both the moon and the sun can be seen. So the setting sun was glowing on one side and the near-full moon can be seen on the other. But alas, beauty is short-lived, and the marvellous sight only lasted for about half an hour before the night took over.

yeah...rich and yy came down after their big eat at sakae to support the event also. "月圆人圆”There are 2 chinese festivals that calls for the reunion of ppl, CNY and the mid-autumn festival. So, it was like a mini-gathering for us yest, cept that deng was MIA due to blood tests and suspected dengue. After the event, moved the instruments back to CO room, xl helped again, thx a lot.... then we went to S11 for "dinner" at 9+pm. We crapped a lot of random stuff and had to settle for hokkien mee as nothing much was left. And rich came up with a total random “搬弄是非”After everyone finished the food, zongjin suddenly found out that he lost an envelope that Miss lim wants and started a frantic ransacking of bags to search for it. Finally concluded that the envelop is still in sch and therefore, he and kwan set off returning to sch at an unearthly 10pm. Well...they found it in the end...but i hope earlier than the sms zj sent me at an even more unearthly 11pm.... On staying till late in sch, according to xl, Mr Hodge actually scolded a girl for staying till 12mn in sch to study and sent her home in a taxi 0_0 lol, thts all from me....new song uploaded, gaining through losing by ken hirai, more fondly known as the original version of F4's liu xing yu...

Thursday, September 15, 2005

在游戏还没开始前
翻看了游戏规则
上面写着“你若参加,就必输”
明知如此
却相信自己有超人的力量
改变游戏规则
最终让自己得到胜利...

这..是愚蠢?...还是坚持?

人是自私的
要说“他比我幸福”很容易
要说“我比他幸福”却很难
情侣口中的“我爱你”已成了
“我要你给我幸福”

在玩游戏的当中,
赫然发现自己不是超人
但却不肯接受事实的残酷
还在游戏中徘徊

或许有一天会发现
要赢这游戏
唯一的方法就是知足而放弃
把“我爱你”变成了
“我要你比我更幸福”

可惜的是
人始终是人
而人最大的错
就是不懂得知足....

Saturday, September 10, 2005

I was planning to post this yest but was interrupted by bong regarding the previous post...lol

Currently enjoying the positive externalities generated by the birthday present i gave my bro. 五月天《知足》.... He brings the CDs to camp but i have the mp3s and the VCD at home :) Just wasted the night away watching the VCD and guang liang's one (only realised tht tong hua has a MV after like 4 months since i bought the album). lol...both are nice.. but i'll talk on 五月天. They created this movie called 未来 ... shall not do spoilers so i'll just quote some lines tht are meaningful...


我从来不会想说,
那种..
如果时光可以倒流的这种话。
因为....
时光如果真的可以倒流,
这一切就不会那么的珍贵....


Mayday just has this ability to cheer you up no matter wat situation you are in. Perhaps its the non-chalance or rather the way their music express their belief that there is good in the world and nothing else matters more than that.

你知道吗,有些事只要你不要太在意,它就真的没那么了不起...


昨天太近,明天太远,现在我了解.... 在等..未来会发生什么事.... 知足后.....就会常乐...


怎么去拥有 一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能觉得足够

如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头 才发现笑着哭 最痛

那天你和我 那个山丘 那样的唱着 那一年的歌
那样的回忆 那么足够 足够我天天 都品尝着寂寞

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头 才发现笑着哭 最痛

如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 再不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有

知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛

[五月天-知足]

a song tht would perhaps make u tear involuntarily....but after crying....there would be a smile on your face.....

Friday, September 09, 2005

I refer to the online letter titled "RJC students, watch your dropping pants and short skirts" on ST forum on 8 sep(http://straitstimes.asia1.com.sg/forum/story/0,5562,339311,00.html?). I am undeniably touched by the author's concern for RJ , especially when he comes from the institution located right next to us. However, after reading the article, even the barely literate, i'm sure, would have noticed something wrong. But what is it that makes it wrong?

The letter aptly points out a very pertinent trend in an "illustrious institution." The fact that SOME RJ students dress sloppily is undeniable but to say that RJ girls are seen "invariably" in short skirts and "many" guys have dropping pants is stretching the limit. For one, "invariably" means constantly which means if i can find 1 counter-example, the argument falls through.

The second reason, i have to say as a student practising science, is that his accusations are groundless. This is because he could not have conducted attire checks on the entire RJ population without playing truant and risking himself being in a boys' home or the mental hospital for an uncanny fetish. So, i suppose him a normal student that perhaps saw 10 girls wearing short skirts and 10 guys wearing dropping pants in a day. Still, thts less than 1% of the entire RJ population and cannot be used to generalise the remaining 99% of the population.

The above 2 "wrongs" can be easily forgiven with a simple line of "freedom of speech". The author is obviously entitled to his opinion of the RJ population and the RJ population, as the elites, would not mind the criticism. However, we need to discern criticism from scathing attacks and the final line he wrote "I urge the school authorities to take action." hits himself in the foot. At first glance, one might have thought that the author keyed in the wrong address when sending the email but common sense tells u that an individual with an IQ above 100 or even 150 and a PSLE score of 261 and above could not have commited such a elementary error. Thus, the ultimate motive of the author then becomes apparent.

I quote, "far from making a statement", all he had accomplished was to show his lack of maturity. "Just because a student is out of school boundaries does not mean that the school image cannot be affected by the student's dress and actions." I am indeed thankful that he did not reveal his own school. "Never underestimate Man's ability to be stupid" Mr Joseph Wong once said. How apt.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

After running through mandopop and english pop songs, its time for some j-pop, okay, not exactly pop but should still sound familiar to most of you all out there.

Todae's kevin's birthdae, so happy birthdae teletubby and hope u like ur new wallet... Speaking of the wallet, me and xl went down to heeren yest morning to get it. lol, we actually headed the wrong direction after we got out of the station though both of us knew exactly where heeren is. Got the wallet settled earlier than expected and went cine to watch Jack Neo's directed One More Chance. I wanted to watch penguins but xl was dead set against it and in the end the time-slot i was eyeing was sold out 0_0. Never knew singaporeans were so on about documentaries..and in stark contrast, the locally produced film only had a half-house. The movie was okay lar...quite funny and meaningful. There was a scene where they turned the innocent "三只老虎" into a cockles' song that should turn off most cockles-lovers. And the finale was cute....national propaganda..... everyone in the movie started waving the yellow ribbon like some 招财猫 while i was cringing coz i couldn't bear to watch on....

And todae....went Amk in the morning to play pool b4 going down to northpoint for a Swensons lunch. And yes, the earthquake ended up the same way as before, mashed... and the dried ice removed for some chemical experiment. Used the dried ice in replace of candles in the end as we sang the birthday song for kevin, though as much as he would like to, he can't blow out the "candle". Then rich and shan tried rap and jazz versions of the birhtday songs which didn't turn out too well. Then we went shan's house for mahjong and bridge. Due to the lack of a proper table, they ended up playing mahjong on a styrofoam board placed on a mattress. erm...innovation at its very best? And only in the second round did they realise that they had everything from the botanic gardens but were missing stuff from the zoo. And so the two blank tiles were thrown in as psuedo animals...dotz... Finally at 5, me, vin and deng left shan's house to make our way home. Walked deng to his house b4 taking 39 back.. There goes the last moments of "playing" in the hols, time to really start mugging....sianz...
ah....my first narrtaive entry since a long long time.....


Saigo no kisu wa ka ba tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love love song
Now and forever

[utada hikaru- first love]

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Close my eyes when it gets too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
I close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope its over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
I hope my Mom
And I hope my Dad
Would figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream
I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry
I close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels that make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say everything will be wonderful some day

Chorus
Promises mean everything
When you’re little and the world so big
I just don’t understand
how you can smile with all those tears in your eyes
and tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it’s all ok
I laugh a lot so my friends won’t know
When the bell rings that I just don’t wanna go
I go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don’t believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful some day

Chorus

No no no no
I don’t want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No no no no
I don’t want to hear you say that I will understand some day
No no no no
I don’t want to hear you say that you both have grown in a different way
No no no no
I don’t want to meet your friend
And I don’t want to start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything

Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now…
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now ..
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now ..

I don’t want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now……

Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful…….

Everything is wonderful now…….
Everything is wonderful now…….

[Everclear- Wonderful]

Closing my eyes and counting to ten.....

Thursday, September 01, 2005

As promised, an update....

The power of sing-alongs

Imagine this situation:
You are chatting with a couple of friends and suddenly there was this unnatural silence. Everyone just ran out of things to say. Then one of you start humming a tune and slowly, everyone starts to join in in the singing.

If you would recall film Armageddon, the team leaving for space then broke out in a impromtu rendition of "Leaving on a jet plane" that was extremely fitting to the occasion. That is an occasion where music does more good than words.

In the past week, been experiencing a few sing-alongs, the more memorable ones would include the class teachers' day present for our CT and the batch song sung twice for Mrs Koh. I was pleasantly surprised by the former, coz it was just something that i tot my class would never do, more so when their choice of song was guang liang's tong2 hua4. Perhaps i do not knoe the class as well as i think after all. So we sang the song in this tutorial room in block B which was empty by then, luckily i would say. lol, i won't and shouldn't comment on pitching and stuff, but i would say that the spirit is there lar. I believed in fairytales when i sang tht and i think that the class did as well, at least i hope so, and so hopefully our CT can see that as well.

The second sing-along i mentioned was the batch song for Mrs Koh during Teachers' Day Eve. After meeting up with most of the teachers, Mrs Koh called for the batch to assemble at the atrium. She then, like a great leader, took centre stage and gave a rousing speech, to tell us that she's leaving RI at the end of the year. Then she requested for the singing of the batch song. Close to 100 ppl was at the atrium then i think, and we formed a circle and started singing the batch song at the top of our voices.
"Teach us well, Teach us how to care,
Give us love, love that we can share.
As we walk hand in hand in the light of the rising sun,
We are the young."

As each note of the song reasonates through the atrium, it tugs at each and every of our heartstrings. The batch spirit was back, with nostalgia this time. Flashblacks started running through my head, the times in class, in CO...the more memorable ones like grad ceremony and grad night. I looked to the side, i did not knoe the person beside me, but what i do knoe is tht, he's been touched, moved by the song as well as he sings at the top of his voice, not caring if he was off-tune. I looked across to Mrs Koh, her face was filled with tears, but in between sobs, she still joins us in singing. I felt tears weeling up in the eyes, but they never materialised on the face. "You can cry, but you can't let your tears fall" the unfortunate truth of the environment we are in now.

Songs or music in general seeks to move the audience. It does not take a musician to appreciate music, it just takes someone with the ability to feel and be true to his/her emotions. The meaning of music is only lost when one become apathetic to music or rather, apathetic to how u feel.......
Okae...first time i'm posting something close to "junk music". Felt that the mood need to lighten up a little, esp after yest's post. So, "cartoon heroes" by Aqua it will be. Sleeping is good, it makes the world seem so simple. ha... lol, thx shan for tagging... I'm fine already, or rather, i'm okay from the start and i'm not deceiving myself... lol, will do another update by tonite...so stay tuned?