Saturday, September 25, 2004

Whatever started it shall end it.....

Raffles Institution Prelimary Examinations 2004

English Paper 1

Duration: 1h 30 min

Section B- Functional Writing (250 - 350 words)

The prelims exam has just ended, you are now taking a break before studying for the "O"s
again. Write, as though you were writing in a "blog", your feelings and reflections during the
prelims and your plans for the next few days. Your prose may include the following:

-How the standard of each paper was and how you did.

-Your prediction of each of the nine subject grades and your "ideal JC"

-What problems you faced and how you handled them.

-Your assessment of the rationale of the prelims and your thoughts and reflection.

Hi, I'm finally back, after a long, gruelling and ardous experience. They say its the horror
movie that is filmed in all secondary schools and it is to run for two weeks. They say its the
sec 4 prelims. Let dive straight into it.

Day 1 (Physics Practical)

Standard of paper- easy

Prediction- high A1 score

After forcing myself to look at practicals over the past 2 years the day before, they came up
with something with requires little to no theory. Focal length of converging lens and ocillations
of a pendulum+basic stuff like measuring mass and volume... A big hu-ha was made about how long
is the focal length, but it turned out rather alrite..

Day 2 (English)

standard of paper- (paper 1) moderate

(paper 2) hard:(

prediction- at most low A1...

It started off quite okay as writing was expected to be hard and topic like "Walls" came
out,leading people to think about ice-cream at a "couldn't be more unappropiate" time. The compre
killed us all, with the summary resposible for most casualties. An expository on education
system, need I say more?

Day 3 (Chinese)

Standard of paper- (paper 1) average

(paper 3) easy?

prediction- A1 seems possible but it would be fatal to make predictions now as the chinese
paper is always unpredictable.

The writing part was okae, with its topic a little bit strange, "the lack of Nobel prize
winners in Sg". Paper 2 was rather easy, easiest in 10 yrs, commented TPH, hopefully the results
show likewise.

Day 4 (Chem Practical)

Standard of paper- titration-easy

QA- moderate

prediction- borderline A1 to med-high A1 seems possible

Titration was simple as i hit both the accurate titre values both time and i wasted little
time in thinking to plot for the experiment. QA is a little shaky for me as i failed to identify
oxygen in the 1st test and failed to observe a change as i did not add enough silver nitrate. The
unknown was apparently some rubydium nitrate. Transition metal salt...yucks...

Day 5 (SS + E maths 2)

Standard of paper - SS- easy? E maths 2- even easier?

prediction- SS- borderline A1 at most

E maths 2- high A1

SS structured qns were suprisingly easy but i found a flaw in my argument only when i reached
home, so maybe i would not get the level 5. SBQ was a killer, at least for me, finished in 40
mins and spending like 15 mins on the 1st qn decided if a source was more reliable than the
other... E maths was easy that i could only find 1 mistake so far....

Day 6 (Biology)

Standard of paper- 1 - easy

2 - hard

prediction- hope for a borderline A1Paper 1 was rather easy, after comparing answer only found 2 to 3 wrong, so... thats quite good.
Paper 2 was disastrous for me, spent too much time on structured that i have to rush through the
essay questions. Some of the structured questions were quite hard too...so hope they mod...

Day 7 (A Maths 1)

Standard of paper- moderate

prediction- anything from B4 to borderline A1

It was a normal paper, finishing 15 mins before time and was staring at a qn which i found out
much later on to be so simple...o_O.. The reason for the big range is becoz i have 7 marks gone
due to a stupid assumption made and 12 marks at stake in Linear Law as I wasn't even sure if my
graph was correct...

Day 8 (Chem + Hist)

Standard of paper chem 1- easy chem 2- easy Hist - moderate

Prediction- Chem A1

Hist- at most borderline A1

Chem papers were supposed to be hard according to previous prelim papers but they do not
appear to be so this yr i think due to the killer schedule (2 mugging-intensive subs on the same
day) and to make up for chem prac QA. Morale booster. Hist was next and i didn't like the
structured qns. I think i missed out the main point in the 1st qn and i was crapping for the 2nd
qn. Source- based was alright though, the all time favourte "inference qn" came back after it
presence being sorely missed in the SS paper.

Day 9 (Physics 2 and A Maths 2)

Standard of paper Physics 2- moderate

A Maths 2- easy to a slight extent

Prediction- Physics A2?

A Maths A1 i hope

Physics was supposed to be my pet subject, yet it is so screwed this yr. I got stuck at the
first qn only answering it in the last 5 mins. I left 1 two mark qn blank....my essay qn got 1
part totally wrong as i misunderstood the qn....With this kind of mistakes, the chance of an A1
is quite low, but I'm banking in on the other qns being well done to score. Hope my paper 1 and
prac can pull this up.

Day 10 (Maths 1 + Lit)

Standard of paper- Maths- easy

Lit - moderate

Prediction- Maths A1

Lit borderline A1

Maths paper 1, like its counterpart, was a breeze and a great morale booster. Till now, its
still at a 100% record:) Lit paper 1 was okae i guess. I jumped into poetry part (c) without
seeing the second part and in the end could only squeeze out 1 quote...hopefully that does not
affect my score... The prose was rather easy as it was different(hmm... this sounds
contradictory) The language was different and the symbolism and sacarsm was so strong that it was
hard to miss the point, still the qn made it hard for us to put the point into words. Lit paper
2, 12th Night. An unexpected theme threw me offguard as i scrambled an essay that was incoherent
...the given text was even worst, the second part did not have a thing to do with the text...

Day 11 (Bio Prac)

Standard of paper- EASY

Prediction- NOT more than a A1

Note the contrasting details, yeah, that means i screwed it up. Only figured everything at 9pm
at night. Yeah, for those interested... W1 has more starch than W2. S4 has most reducing sugar,
followed by S2, then S3 and finally S1. And note, i got the first part rite, yet the second part
wrong...

Day 12 (Physics 1)

standard of paper- expected moderate

Prediction- A1No more shall be said

With that 288 hrs of horror, the eposide "prelims" is officially closed.My L1R5 target would
be a single digit, which sounds reasonable to me. Just hoping the teachers will practice mercy
with their pens these few days.... Looking at the recent spade of events, i can't help having a
forum to post my self-opinionated views on these events in the blog. I shall try to keep it short
and snappy.

Case 1: The rhetorical "5-day week"

PM Lee said in his National Day rally that the civil service and schs and the army will lead
the nation to a "5-day week". This means 44 hrs for working ppl in 5 days as set by the MOM,
though it reminded of the "three-day week" in Animal Farm proposed by Snowball aka Trotsky in
Russia. For schs, a unique guideline was introduced stating that sch-initiated activities are not
to be carried out on Sats, only student-initiated activities are allowed and the emphasis on not
pushing all the work from Sat to Fri. Here there are two points of contention:Firstly, the workers are asked to squeeze their worktime into the 5 days yet schs are given the
priviledge of cutting down of syllabus. This could only mean 2 things. One, the workers have more
work to do at home and two, the cutting down of syllabus and homework are only in statistics.Secondly, the widely-contended student-initiated activity, define it. If a student initiate an
activity not approved by the sch, is it still a student-initiated activity. Going the other way,
if the activity is approved by the sch, what diff is it from a sch-initiated activity. The line
that sets them apart is blurred... Hopefully, no Boxer would be produced from this change.

Looking for manifestations within the sch...

Case 1: The apparent mystery of the Sec 4's misbehavior during Prelim peroid

Sec 4s within 1 and half weeks, were crowned as a "disgrace" to the school for some rowdy
behavior during morning assembly. Lets try to put things into perspective.On the side of the students, we do not see why we need to attend flag-raising as 1, most
annoucements do not concern us, 2, our exams were within 30mins and 3, walking in to a exam hall
sweaty and irritated by the irrelevance of the speaker during assembly isn't really the "
condusive" environment the sch so speak of to seek to provide.On the side of the sch authorities, it is a matter of policy, as we learnt in SS, since 1960s,
all schs in sg have been having flag-raising every morning and MOE states that it is compulsory
for every student to attend flag-raising. We all knoe the reasons behind this policy and today I
find myself sitting on the fence. The students have the right to be restless and talk during
assembly, they(we) were being excluded. Since the sch excluded us, why should we pay attention?
Two, with an exam so close, it is inexorable that we would feel nervous and talking is one of the
best ways of reducing fear and reinforcing ideas. Yet, we are forgetting a pertinent point, that
we are questioning the system that gave us what we needed to ask this qn in the first place. Such
we cannot deny, much less refute. Therefore, the behavior is understandable(if there is such
word), yet it contradicts ourselves. Unless like 50% of the whole cohort decides not to turn up
for morning assembly, then maybe we'll have a case, yet drastic actions are uncalled for. Thus, i
can conclude safely that this selfish, instinctive behavior by the sec 4s would gradually
diminish after the prelims though how gradual can the last 3 weeks be...

Case 2: A Case of a errant student or the failure of the CLE policy?

On the final day of the prelims, the sec 4s grudgingly strutted into the parade square for
flag-raising and annoucement. All was going well, or i thought, except the sun was already high
up and the speakers seemed to fail to notice this fact. Well...after all of us were sweating and
swearing away at the school's policy, a person of "great weight" decided to take the podium of
inform us of an incident that took place recently in the school. A apparent mysterious boy had
used a school's lock (as in standardised for whole school) to lock an ice-cream box that
contained ice-cream to be sold to raise funds for MINDs by Red Cross i believe. Now, our first
reaction is obviously humour due to our impure, sadistic mind. Thus, laughter travelled through
the parade square at the speed of 300m/s. A "this is not funny" travelled at the same speed soon
after though its amplitude was many many time larger and its tone was of anger and upset. So,
lets not point out who's right and who's wrong, rather step back and see thw whole picture.Firstly, why did the apparent boy do this? I don't have an answer but I do question the validity
of the claim that one of us did it. No evidence was shown through the process. Two, the sec 4s
were blamed for "not stopping the ""apparent boy"" in his act". Yet, they did not realise that of
the boy was to persist and bide his time, he would have found a way to do this unnoticed.
Furthermore, if the first does not stand, the second claim is "gone with the wind".Okae, now lets assume that a student did it, we need to ask why? Is it the failure of our CLE (
character Leadership Programme)? Could a student who took CLE and philosophy do this? According
to the system, no. Therefore, it could only be the failure of this system that lead to this act.
And why did the programme fail, its manifestation clearly seen in the laughing students, is the
more pertinent question, i think, rather than who did it.

JC talks

The marking days of the prelims were set aside for JC talks from the top 5 JCs in Sg. Me, as a
enthusist in propaganda and the use of language attended these talks trying to sieve out facts
from honey-lined words. Here are my accounts.

Raffles Junior College (Open House : 22nd Oct 10am-5pm)

Yes, the all so famous top JC that is affliated to the same great man that founded Singapore
and our school. The team that came were obviously extremely sure of themselves that they needed
no advertising...What they needed was(as they felt) impact, pompousity. Jargon were littered on
their powerpoint slides. Words they used were profound and sent a signal to the layman in RI, YOU
ARE NOT SUITED TO BE HERE. WE ARE ONLY OPEN TO GENIUSES. And yes, i should observe a very
sensitive trend, that they like to let their "British-like" Singaporeans to talk to us, using
heavily slanged English that had 90% of the audience stumped. However, we should applaud them for
their open policy, throwing at us all the achievements they achieved, lists after lists, item
after item. The seniors that came did not help much, after much probing, all I could gather from
their speech was RI Is not equal to RJC. At the end of the day. they had 3 hrs, 3 times as much
time as any other JC, yet as a stereotyped layman, I can straightaway tell you that my interest
in Rj had decreased proportionally to tht time they spent talking to us. However, as a observer,
this was a guarantee, that the environment would be competitive enough for the non self-motivated
and that they had the prestige. When they spoke, there's this air of superiority that I would not
deem as negative, and I believe that it is that air of "limited arrogance" that would bring a
person to greater heights. To sum it up, if you want to make it big in life, go RJ.

Hwa Chong Junior College (Open House : 22nd Oct 10am-5pm)

oh, sorry, next yr it would be called Hwa Chong Institute. The team, by far, was the most
well-prepared and came with one solitary purpose, entertain and attract, in other words,
propaganda. Thus, we were thoughly entertained by the wit, humour and the plain "spirit". The
presentation started with their GP teachers telling us 43 reasons to go to Hwa Chong, though he
was stuttering at first, he soon found his tone to produce a rousing speech that was magical.
Next, they played a video to promote their sch. They made advertisements that had a sting becoz
of one, their familiarity (ie.Henniken and HP), two, the amount of effort put in. I was rather
moved by the fact that they actually prepared so much for us when most of us had already made up
our mind where to go. Yet, this was trivial compared to what happened next. The humanities
teacher, I forgot his name, who started the humanities programme I think entertained us with a
witty speech laced with humour. The physical appearance wasn't exactly pleasing to the eye yet he
had a unique charisma, an ability to attract and capture attention. He often made digs at Mr Mac
by referring to RJC as "the other institute", sprayed insults at us and yet make it sound funny.
Then came the students, by which a few commented that was the only team who brought girls to
speak to us. We were reassured numerous times that we would feel like "family" within HC, making
me wonder if this is all but a self-fufilling prophecy. Still, they spoke convincingly and their
happy-go-lucky attitude contrasted with the RJ team, allowing them to score even higher. At the
end of the presentation, I think Mr Mac, worried that RJC had lost its appeal to us, requested to
say a few words. He refered to one of the GP teachers reason that a certain teacher was the most
handsome in HC as being the exact reason why he would not go HC. Oh, then he so light-hearted
atrributed the humanities' teacher reference to "the other institution" was due to "his lack of
vocabulary". He made one final dig, at their student concil pres, a certain female by the name
Faith I believe, that RI students respond well to "Faith"(Double pun!!!) in reference to an event
where a RI student toned down and used a high pitched voice to respond to her. The unintended
victim of the circumtance stood up to protest but was duely cut off so aptly by Mr Mac. Mr Mac
then left the room with this "triumphant" look on his face and I left the LT, totally tickled by
the events and reaffirmed my "faith" that English is such a wonderful language.

Temasek Junior College (Open House : 15th Oct 10am-5pm)

This one is rather cold, if you get what I mean. If you don't, read on. When I entered the LT,
it was dark and a video was screening. I sat down, watched the video and when the lights came on,
a vivacious young lady who claimed to be a former Rafflesian came out. I thought that was rather
normal, but...I was wrong. The first ominous signs came when she took on the phrase "vibrant
culture" mentioned by one of us as an aspect o JC we would look out for, and pun it with
................................guess.......................active bacteria in a microculture(
applause) the whole Lt suddenly felt very cold and i thoght eddison was bad enough...She then
went on to tell us how the sch won a NoBell prize (no, there is no spelling error), indeed as
their sch bell often not ring due to certain defects and how this causes lesson to be BOring, (
hokkein "BO" means no) Again, the temp in the LT dropped. When I left the LT, I was effectively
thawing...

National Junior College (Open House : 16th Oct 10am-3pm)

Nothing much to say about this. They were pretty formal and therefore so were we.

Victoria Junior College (Open House : 16th Oct 10am-3pm)

hmm...This seems like a toned-down version of HC's presentation. The principal was one funky
one, a female somemore. It appears that she could relate perfectly to us teenagers although with
her not so perfect singapore accented English. The wonderful display convinced me to add VJ to my
list of considerations because of its proximity to my house...

Well. folks, in a few days the prelims results would be back and then I would really be able
to set down my choices for JC. On an ending note, I've added a tagboard due to demand from snl
and I'll leave you with a song, the one playing in the background now. X- Japan------Tears.

ps. I think I exceeded 350 words and the midi file really doesn't do X-Japan justice, so if u
like the song, go find the real version.

TEARS

doko ni yukebaii anata to hanarete

ima wa sugisatta toki ni toi kakete

nagasugita yoru ni tobidachi wo yume mita

ikoku no sora mitsumete

kodoku wo dakishimete

nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete

owaranai anata no toiki wo kanjite

Dry your tears with love

loneliness, your silent whisper

fills a river of tears through the night

Memory, you never let me cry

and you, you never said good-bye

Sometimes oue tears blinded the love

We lost our dreams along the way

But I never thought

you'd trade your soul to the fates,

never thought you'd leave me alone

Time through the rain has set me free

Sands of time will keep your memory

Love everlasting fades away

Alive within your beatless heart

Dry your tears with love

nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete

owaranai kanashimi wo aoi bara ni kaete

Dry your tears with love

nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete

owaranai anata no toiki wo kanjite

Dry your tears with love

Dry your tears with love


Saturday, July 31, 2004

Letting go.....seems easier said than done....and the truth is......who can let go?.......

23072004
What a day...an ordinary day....a day just like others....yet it hold so much significance to me.
I cannot deny that this day was far more meaningful than any other I had in RI, I cannot deceive myself to think that I do not care, I do not love.....This day is handover, where sec 4s
officially "retire" from the orchestra, where the new tide washes us thru. It marks the end of
our journey, a beginning for the next generation...... I cannot give back what RICO has given me in the past 3 years, it is too much to be returned.

Though my path in the orchestra wasn't really smooth-sailing, it was a learning process, and I
was given an experience I would never forget eternally.... Yes, today the amazing journey i took
would be revealed and secrets shall be told and truth shall be known Year 2001, sep-nov, i joined RICO as a sec 1 switching from Judo to Chinese Orchestra. I was in Judo for the first 3 months, quiting somewhere in April orMay. The reason which I quit was that I could not comprehend and accept gamesmanship. I felt that there was more to life than that. A casual comment from my mum was enough for me to set my mind on quiting. After quiting, I was a "
floating body" for 6 months. In this 6 months, I've tried applying for another sports CCA,
basketball, which I tot I could understand and excel. The TIC(teacher-in-charge) had promised to let me try for the team. However, coincidentally or whatever, he did not get back to me. By sep-nov, I finally realised that I couldn't go on like this. Thus, in a new environment with new
friends for 9 months, I took the largest gamble- as my best friend- kevin was in CO, my brother
was in band, I went to apply for CO. I have no musical background and screwed music lessons in pri sch. What I did was apparent sucide, but looking at todae, it has not turned out so.......

When I stepped into RICO, I felt remotely out of place. I had no understanding of music theory,
was unable to differentiate one instrument from the other and knew very few ppl. I was allocated into erhu with Kai Hong who joined at the same time as me. Kai Hong had an advantage as he had a grade 4 or 6 piano cert. (I forgot) Soon, we went for lessons under Mr Mike Chiang, basically an extremely nice guy who oozes charm and is extremely funny. Kai Hong was learning at a faster rate and I had difficulty catching up. Not long after, we were also required to "observe" orchestral practice. It is during one of these practice that Mr Goh Yew Guan, RICO's conductor at that time, picked us up and set us to play percussion, me a triangle and kai hong wooden blocks. Yes, with my music theory at that time, u could imagine what happen. I couldn't even play the first beat of every bar(thts wat the score requires of me) at tht time. Btw, the song was Long, our 2003 SWF piece. After numerous practice and guidance from both Julian and Mr Goh, i begin to get the hang of it. RICO was in a precarious situation at tht time. We got a bronze, a big drop from gold, in 2001. There were rumours of disbanding, morale was at a all time low. I couldn't choose a worse time to join.

In sec 2, the situation continued and there was this "draggy" feeling thru out CO. Percussion had no sectionals and we(Me, Julian, Kai Hong) literally had to sight-read every practice and
obviously, we would get screwed this way. Near the end of the year, there was shocking news.....
Mr Goh had decided to quit. He has been with the CO since RICO was started and the reasons forhis leaving are too sensitive to quote up here, but I'll just say that it's got something to do
with a disreptancy in viewpoint of him and the sch's management. A new conductor, Mr Yeo Puay Hian, took over, a fatherly figure that is kind and well-respected. Things have just started to change.....

To descibe the turning point of the orchestra, I could not leave out one very important person,
our ex-TIC, Mr Lee. He contributed tremendously to turning RICO out of its decline and to what it is today. Sec 3 was an eventful year, which I would call the start of the revival miracle. SYF was on that year and our standards seemed to be indicate another disappointment in store. At the start of Sec 3, we had our late concert which ws supposed to be held in the dec the previous year. I was playing both erhu and percussion for that concert and I must admit that looking back, i was in no condition nor skill to be up on stage. I was playing crap, i think...After the concert, we had our SYF. It drew close to the march hols, we were preparing and suddenly, SARS hit Singapore. We had an extra 2 weeks hols and SYF was postpone for 3 months. 3 months, miracle happened. Mr Lee went to extremes to hire the services of Shen Guo Qing lao shi, who was given 3 months to perform a miracle on us. Miracles did happen and we worked our way to a silver award. Throughout this built-up, Mr Lee fought for us for many things, including using the hall as a practice area, employing up to 7 teachers and bonding the orchestra in a way that was never like before. I salute him and he deserves the greatest honour of making my time in CO a meaningful one.

In the final year, a hectic year, I was drafted into commitee as a Librarian, though I must say I
was more interested in the organising and running of the orchestra than printing scores, thus I
left most of the work to Bing Liang who screws everything. Can't blame him though, the scores and the library are seriously messy and "untouchables". Adding to that, these 2 yrs, sec3 and 4, we had 5 concerts, 4 major ones, Jit-Sin+RI in Sg, in Penang, RI+SN atVCH2003, RI+RJ+RG at SCH2004, the fifth minor one was a combined Raffles schools concert in the Botanical Gardens. Such a schedule was pure sucide if we had expected it, ironically. The cute thing was that it was after we had been thru everything that we realised that everything was so much. Dec 2003, we were thinking of songs to play for this yr's April concert, come up with Fei Tian, Long Teng, Jun Ma....these 3 were sucidal enough considering our standards. opps....correction...i think we started Fei Tian in Dec and for Long Teng, we started 2 weeks b4 CNY, plaaning to play it for CNY. obviously tht didn't work out and Shen Lao Shi was tasked with a 3 month miracle again, this time for concert.

During march hols, went to Penang for 1 wk, must say that it was the most fufilling trip as there
was this spirit of togetherness that is so unique to RICO. It was the most unforgettable part of
my memories of RICO. Yes, again Shen Lao Shi has this unique ability to make 3 month miracles happen. This time, the job was much harder as we were training for a full-fledge percussion based song that none of us has touched in our days in RICO. Yet, he made it happen. Yes, he might have said stuff that are not very nice, scolding us....but tht jus shows that he cares and he wants us to excel. By concert day, a decent Long Teng was ready, combining with RG perc, it made the whole thing sound more impressive.And yes, Jun Ma was finally out(as in scores) 1 month b4 the concert and we started panicking for JOTO 3 wks b4. Still, everything worked out rather good considering the amount of time we had. finally concert....I was soloist yet when I asked myself if I was playing for anyone in the audience, I realised that my answer was a no. I have always believed that music is selfish or personal if u dun like my phrasing, a musician can only meant the music for 1 person in the audience, not anymore. My parents couldn't make it and a few friends bought "Phantom tickets"(Buying and not turning up) to make up my ticket sales. I was rather troubled by the thought till I finally realised b4 going on stage that it does not matter if the person I was playing for was in the audience seats, what matter most is that I knoe that me myslef is playing for tht person. Its like loving someone and letting him or her go becoz u knoe tht he/she would be happier. When my solo finished, the applause was confirmation that i did not care for, though having the Shen Lao Shi shouting good in chinese was definitely encouraging, what i care for is that I am able to tell myself that i went up and played the best for tht one person..... And so i realised that the confirmation that we so blindly go for everytime was illusive, was so fragile and superficial.....The end of the april concert signals the "coolin down" peroid for the sec 4s as we engage in our studies for the common test. Soon, the last concert went and the miracle of 2003-2004 commitee was done and the legacy of batch 2004 was passed down on the fateful day of 23072004. Goodbye seems the hardest thing to say, it seems as we both reluctantly and excitedly handed the baton of leadership to the Sec 3s. The road has been paved, the miracles have been done. Rescuing RICO from the worse was over and the path is lighted ahead. The legacy must continue.....The miracles must be made.....To all my juniors, all I have to say is that we've come so far from our lowest point, it is time to build a tradition. RICO is a relatively young orchestra, formed only in 1980something I forgot. I heard that it was formed and disbanded thrice, as such we did not have the history and tradition many school had, + the fact that our sch had 50 over CCAs meant that budget was low, membership was low. Yes, we might never be like CHS, DHS or even RGS, NY and so on but RICO still remains a unique orchestra. We might not measure up in technique or skills to them but is that what u want in ur life? Yes, RICO seems to be heading downhill again with membership with the sec ones next yr barely over 50, but the most important thing i feel is that the 50 of u all next yr would create a miracle of ur own jus like the batch of 2004 has done. Miracles are elusive by nature, the more unlikely, the more likely, how ironic. The miracle need not be SYF gold or something, it can be something seemingly trivial, but it would be etched into the memories of 50 of u all for the rest of ur life. The most valuable present RICO gave me was the eternal gift of memories. When a miracle happens in ur life, u wouldn't forget it  no matter what happens. So ppl, stop comparing and start living. There are memories out there for u to create.

RICO case closed with a bit of tears, laughter and obviously memories.

p.s. I believe in everlasting memories, feelings. 20 yrs down the road, check me, I'll stil remember 23072004 and the miracles...
Signing off(This is the longest entry so far)


Wednesday, July 14, 2004

I've seen enough.....The world seems to be too beautiful at times, too ugly at times.....I don't knoe how to put it, its just a complex feeling...

Ppl in the whole world spent their lives looking for what they want. In the end, some got what they want, some believed they got what they want, yet some are disillusioned. Sometimes ppl obtained an object of interest, they believed they found what they want and thus develop a false satisfaction with their life. Have you really got what you want? Those reading, pls take time to reflect, examine your life, is this what you really want in your life? Is tht position so important, tht result or those material stuff? Do we sometimes pursue our so-called interest sometimes too blindly that we forsake everything else for it? I dun knoe but my advice is: make sure you do not regret what you did. Dun jus say it, really think about it. The layman human's major flaw is the inability to think into the future. For me, i can safely say that i do not have regrets. Even if i were to leave the world tmr, i would live today without regrets....

Todae....is rather strange....nvm...i'll go straight into details. First, i woke up late and in the end rushed to the MRT station, missed one train. Still, in irony, i met a someone I've not met in 3-4 yrs? Anw, we walked past each other as though we had nvr known each other. I looked straight in her eyes but there was this coldness tht seemed so familiar. The pt when we crossed each other, i realised, tht she was still the same...but i have changed....Btw, if any of you are guessing, no, my relationship with her is not what you think it is. Still, this incident bugged me for a day.... Next in sch, common test results are finally slowly revealed to us by the teachers. Got 84 and 81 for Bio and E-maths respectively, quite happy but only got 55 for A-maths. Haiz... will have to buck up. Physics MCQ got 14, hopefully enough for a A1 when we get our paper 2 resuts tmr.

After sch todae, we had tph remedial then me, kevin and zongjin took bus 53 home. hmm....an interesting thing happened. Kevin met an apparent pri schmate in the bus interchange and also got dao-ed. He said something to me tht struck me. "Did I change tht much since sec 1?" It totally struck me and i was again reminded of the incident this morning. Perhaps i have really changed......

Finally, when i got off the bus todae, someone called my name. I turned around to look, there stood a friend of mine I've not seen for about a year. He is a RI-RJC senior currently in the army. We spoke for a while and he again suaned me like siao. Anw, he could now do 25 pull-ups in one shot, 5 more from the last time i saw him. Wah...25 is so far away...Still, he was the one who taught me how to do pull-ups and many many lessons in life, including how to chase girls and so on:S. Still, i have to salute him here for his contribution to my life.

Todae...i can only say tht life is full of surprises. When u think everything is going smoothly, u'll find some bumpy roads. However, admist them, there are places to remember, to celebrate. Life is never simple....and i guess the me today is different from the me 3 yrs ago. I am thus enlightened......

Saturday, June 26, 2004

缘份是为自己生命努力的人搭起的偶然的桥

Took the above from My Sassy Girl, The Classic. Its meaningful...., at least to me... Anw, the soundtrack, "I believe" so nice..., was watching the show yesterday...okae...todae till 2.15 am:) Such a cute show, so many elements shaped into the movie, comedy, romance, sadness.... The depth of the movie is wonderful, u dun get tht satisfaction after watching movies often.

Common test in 5 days, shall start mugging, so ppl, shall be busy till W2 fri. Gd luck ppl, first dae is a killer, A maths, followed by Lit 12th night and SS, i sincerely pray for my own safety:X

There were daes tht I wished we hadn't crossed paths, there were daes tht I cherish we had. But I guess, if we were two complete strangers, smthing would be missing in me. The experience itself is a motivation for life for me and if u are reading this, I hope tht I meant something at least at a point of ur life.

"少了我的手臂当枕头 你习不习惯
你的望远镜望不到我北半球的孤单
太平洋的潮水跟着地球来回循转
我会耐心地等 随时欢迎你靠岸

少了我的怀抱当暖炉 你习不习惯
E 给你照片看不到我北半球的孤单
世界再大 两个真心就能互相取暖
想念不会偷懒 我的梦通通给你保管”

Thursday, June 03, 2004

Drawing some quotes from the movie Contact:

Executive: We must confess that your proposal seems less like science and more like science fiction.

Ellie Arroway: Science fiction. You're right, it's crazy. In fact, it's even worse than that, it's nuts. You wanna hear something really nutty? I heard of a couple guys who wanna build something called an airplane, you know you get people to go in, and fly around like birds, it's ridiculous, right? And what about breaking the sound barrier, or rockets to the moon? Atomic energy, or a mission to Mars? Science fiction, right? Look, all I'm asking is for you to just have the tiniest bit of vision. You know, to just sit back for one minute and look at the big picture. To take a chance on something that just might end up being the most profoundly impactful moment for humanity, for the history... of history.
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Alien: You're an interesting species, an interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable is each other.
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Palmer Joss: What are you studying up there?

Dr. Eleanor Ann Arroway: Oh, the usual. Nebulae, quasars, pulsars, stuff like that. What are you writing?

Palmer Joss: The usual. Nouns, adverbs, adjective here and there.
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The quotes above carry important messages and i shall leave it up to you out there to decipher. It's very good movie and novel( I've read and seen both) It argues if the spiritual and scientific world could coexist and shows how the concept inteeligent life other than us could result in a conflict between both of them. Is Science generalising religion? Or is religion brainwashing us not to accept Science?

Into the June hols now, still life is quite empty. Am now digging up old RPG games that are not completed yet to complete. Have not started on hmwk. Got extra lessons nxt wk. grr...looking forward to O-levels to be over. But still, i'm not so sure. O-level marks the end, and the end forces u to choose another beginning unlike my lucky juniors who have their fates dictated for them. It does seem easier to follow instructions than to act on ur own initiative. Human like me are so contradictory, you dun give them choices, they want freedom. U give them choices, they can't make up their mind...haiz...shld start studying and tell myself tht 10 A1s is as simple as waking up 1 day to find myslef on Mars... Well, its time to hit the books!

Plan tht wld never be followed.
-Finish all hmwk by wk2 of Jun hols Sunday
-Slack for wk3
-Mug for common test on wk4

I never meant to change anyone's life, I never thought it could have such an impact. I merely allowed the truth to shine through, breaking away layers of deceit and lies, yet I wish I hadn't. If I could turn back the hands of time, I'll leave things as it is, a neutral party.