Close my eyes when it gets too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
I close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope its over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
I hope my Mom
And I hope my Dad
Would figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream
I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry
I close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels that make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say everything will be wonderful some day
Chorus
Promises mean everything
When you’re little and the world so big
I just don’t understand
how you can smile with all those tears in your eyes
and tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it’s all ok
I laugh a lot so my friends won’t know
When the bell rings that I just don’t wanna go
I go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don’t believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful some day
Chorus
No no no no
I don’t want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No no no no
I don’t want to hear you say that I will understand some day
No no no no
I don’t want to hear you say that you both have grown in a different way
No no no no
I don’t want to meet your friend
And I don’t want to start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now…
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now ..
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now ..
I don’t want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now……
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful…….
Everything is wonderful now…….
Everything is wonderful now…….
[Everclear- Wonderful]
Closing my eyes and counting to ten.....
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Thursday, September 01, 2005
As promised, an update....
The power of sing-alongs
Imagine this situation:
You are chatting with a couple of friends and suddenly there was this unnatural silence. Everyone just ran out of things to say. Then one of you start humming a tune and slowly, everyone starts to join in in the singing.
If you would recall film Armageddon, the team leaving for space then broke out in a impromtu rendition of "Leaving on a jet plane" that was extremely fitting to the occasion. That is an occasion where music does more good than words.
In the past week, been experiencing a few sing-alongs, the more memorable ones would include the class teachers' day present for our CT and the batch song sung twice for Mrs Koh. I was pleasantly surprised by the former, coz it was just something that i tot my class would never do, more so when their choice of song was guang liang's tong2 hua4. Perhaps i do not knoe the class as well as i think after all. So we sang the song in this tutorial room in block B which was empty by then, luckily i would say. lol, i won't and shouldn't comment on pitching and stuff, but i would say that the spirit is there lar. I believed in fairytales when i sang tht and i think that the class did as well, at least i hope so, and so hopefully our CT can see that as well.
The second sing-along i mentioned was the batch song for Mrs Koh during Teachers' Day Eve. After meeting up with most of the teachers, Mrs Koh called for the batch to assemble at the atrium. She then, like a great leader, took centre stage and gave a rousing speech, to tell us that she's leaving RI at the end of the year. Then she requested for the singing of the batch song. Close to 100 ppl was at the atrium then i think, and we formed a circle and started singing the batch song at the top of our voices.
"Teach us well, Teach us how to care,
Give us love, love that we can share.
As we walk hand in hand in the light of the rising sun,
We are the young."
As each note of the song reasonates through the atrium, it tugs at each and every of our heartstrings. The batch spirit was back, with nostalgia this time. Flashblacks started running through my head, the times in class, in CO...the more memorable ones like grad ceremony and grad night. I looked to the side, i did not knoe the person beside me, but what i do knoe is tht, he's been touched, moved by the song as well as he sings at the top of his voice, not caring if he was off-tune. I looked across to Mrs Koh, her face was filled with tears, but in between sobs, she still joins us in singing. I felt tears weeling up in the eyes, but they never materialised on the face. "You can cry, but you can't let your tears fall" the unfortunate truth of the environment we are in now.
Songs or music in general seeks to move the audience. It does not take a musician to appreciate music, it just takes someone with the ability to feel and be true to his/her emotions. The meaning of music is only lost when one become apathetic to music or rather, apathetic to how u feel.......
The power of sing-alongs
Imagine this situation:
You are chatting with a couple of friends and suddenly there was this unnatural silence. Everyone just ran out of things to say. Then one of you start humming a tune and slowly, everyone starts to join in in the singing.
If you would recall film Armageddon, the team leaving for space then broke out in a impromtu rendition of "Leaving on a jet plane" that was extremely fitting to the occasion. That is an occasion where music does more good than words.
In the past week, been experiencing a few sing-alongs, the more memorable ones would include the class teachers' day present for our CT and the batch song sung twice for Mrs Koh. I was pleasantly surprised by the former, coz it was just something that i tot my class would never do, more so when their choice of song was guang liang's tong2 hua4. Perhaps i do not knoe the class as well as i think after all. So we sang the song in this tutorial room in block B which was empty by then, luckily i would say. lol, i won't and shouldn't comment on pitching and stuff, but i would say that the spirit is there lar. I believed in fairytales when i sang tht and i think that the class did as well, at least i hope so, and so hopefully our CT can see that as well.
The second sing-along i mentioned was the batch song for Mrs Koh during Teachers' Day Eve. After meeting up with most of the teachers, Mrs Koh called for the batch to assemble at the atrium. She then, like a great leader, took centre stage and gave a rousing speech, to tell us that she's leaving RI at the end of the year. Then she requested for the singing of the batch song. Close to 100 ppl was at the atrium then i think, and we formed a circle and started singing the batch song at the top of our voices.
"Teach us well, Teach us how to care,
Give us love, love that we can share.
As we walk hand in hand in the light of the rising sun,
We are the young."
As each note of the song reasonates through the atrium, it tugs at each and every of our heartstrings. The batch spirit was back, with nostalgia this time. Flashblacks started running through my head, the times in class, in CO...the more memorable ones like grad ceremony and grad night. I looked to the side, i did not knoe the person beside me, but what i do knoe is tht, he's been touched, moved by the song as well as he sings at the top of his voice, not caring if he was off-tune. I looked across to Mrs Koh, her face was filled with tears, but in between sobs, she still joins us in singing. I felt tears weeling up in the eyes, but they never materialised on the face. "You can cry, but you can't let your tears fall" the unfortunate truth of the environment we are in now.
Songs or music in general seeks to move the audience. It does not take a musician to appreciate music, it just takes someone with the ability to feel and be true to his/her emotions. The meaning of music is only lost when one become apathetic to music or rather, apathetic to how u feel.......
Okae...first time i'm posting something close to "junk music". Felt that the mood need to lighten up a little, esp after yest's post. So, "cartoon heroes" by Aqua it will be. Sleeping is good, it makes the world seem so simple. ha... lol, thx shan for tagging... I'm fine already, or rather, i'm okay from the start and i'm not deceiving myself... lol, will do another update by tonite...so stay tuned?
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Having mixed feelings over a decision 5 years ago isn't good at all.....
Perhaps joining RI was a mistake and it just snowballed throughout the years into something that is part of me that no one would understand, no one can help and it would ultimately be the thing that breaks me down....
Yes...RI has made me a better person, i've found wonderful friends, teachers, memories, but perhaps i just do not belong among the elitist...
I deleted the post I was writing after reading xl's blog entry. I was numbed at first, and upon reflection, i tot that for the first time, i was actually unreasonable... Though after clarifying with kevin, found out that xl was referring to smth else but still can't help feel guilty that perhaps it started with me. Sorry rich, if i offended u in any way with my reluctance to have lunch at 3 and just slipping off with the excuse that i'm too tired...
As for why i slipped off, I can't really explain why, but when i sat down at S11, I had this sudden onrush of thoughts that left me unsettled and thinking even as I'm writing now. I just felt that i needed some personal breathing space. Met the co peeps by chance at S11 and tht took my mind off the issue for a while but it hit me again once i reached home and xl's post just adds on to it and i guess i've been thinking bout it for more than 3 hours already....
Random reflections that came into my mind during the 3 hours
Realised that I am hard to understand. Ppl actually take a long time to know me. Ppl tht i care for, i value their every comment and opinion but for ppl who i do not care for, i dun give a damn bout what they think or say.
If anyone would recall 4 years 8 months ago, when we just stepped into RI, our form teacher then, Mr Jerry Ang talked to us on our path in RI. It was one speech that I would never forget. He said "Friends are people that you can call at 2am in the morning, say its a emergency, and without a word, they would be over rite away."
"Everyone has problems" but not everyone has problems that are universally understood.
I try to deceive myself that if i think and say i'm okay, I will be okay and if i could deceive myself for the entire life, i would do so. That would prevent me from breaking down forever then.
Anything i say is always half-true
Finally, this entry is totally incoherent.... and it is not my fault....
Perhaps joining RI was a mistake and it just snowballed throughout the years into something that is part of me that no one would understand, no one can help and it would ultimately be the thing that breaks me down....
Yes...RI has made me a better person, i've found wonderful friends, teachers, memories, but perhaps i just do not belong among the elitist...
I deleted the post I was writing after reading xl's blog entry. I was numbed at first, and upon reflection, i tot that for the first time, i was actually unreasonable... Though after clarifying with kevin, found out that xl was referring to smth else but still can't help feel guilty that perhaps it started with me. Sorry rich, if i offended u in any way with my reluctance to have lunch at 3 and just slipping off with the excuse that i'm too tired...
As for why i slipped off, I can't really explain why, but when i sat down at S11, I had this sudden onrush of thoughts that left me unsettled and thinking even as I'm writing now. I just felt that i needed some personal breathing space. Met the co peeps by chance at S11 and tht took my mind off the issue for a while but it hit me again once i reached home and xl's post just adds on to it and i guess i've been thinking bout it for more than 3 hours already....
Random reflections that came into my mind during the 3 hours
Realised that I am hard to understand. Ppl actually take a long time to know me. Ppl tht i care for, i value their every comment and opinion but for ppl who i do not care for, i dun give a damn bout what they think or say.
If anyone would recall 4 years 8 months ago, when we just stepped into RI, our form teacher then, Mr Jerry Ang talked to us on our path in RI. It was one speech that I would never forget. He said "Friends are people that you can call at 2am in the morning, say its a emergency, and without a word, they would be over rite away."
"Everyone has problems" but not everyone has problems that are universally understood.
I try to deceive myself that if i think and say i'm okay, I will be okay and if i could deceive myself for the entire life, i would do so. That would prevent me from breaking down forever then.
Anything i say is always half-true
Finally, this entry is totally incoherent.... and it is not my fault....
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Time flies....That's an understatement...
The song playing on my blog previously was boyzone's We Are One, wonders if anyone recognises the song? Anw, been asking around, but no one seems to have heard of Mariah Carey's Can't take that away...First time I've heard it was P5 or P6 i think, so can't blame u all for not remembering such an old song? Anw, here it is....without the last 5 secs of the song though..so if anyone have the full version, pls send me.... If anyone can sing half like her, u'll win superstar hands down....And the lyrics:
They can say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow
Anyone to succeed
Hanging clouds over me
And they can try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams
CHORUS:
'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
From me
They can do anything they want to you
lf you let them in
But they won't ever win
If you cling to your pride
And just push them aside
See
I have learned there's an inner peace I own
Something in my soul
That they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid
And darkness will fade
'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
No...
They can't take this
Precious love
I'll always have inside me
Certainly the Lord will guide me
Where I need to go
They can say anything they want to say
Try to break me down
But I won't face the ground
I will rise steadily
Sailing out of their reach
Oh Lord
They do try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams
'Cause there's a light in me that shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
[Mariah Carey- Can't Take That Away]
Dedicated to all chasing their dreams out there, dun let anyone get you down, dun let any obstacle stop u, dun stop believing in ur dreams and fairytales. Others can choose to forget, can choose to eradicate a memory or even deny your existence, but as long as you stand firm with your beliefs...what others say or do becomes inconsequential...
Even when you have forgotten, i will still remember....for you.... and no one can take that away from me.....
The song playing on my blog previously was boyzone's We Are One, wonders if anyone recognises the song? Anw, been asking around, but no one seems to have heard of Mariah Carey's Can't take that away...First time I've heard it was P5 or P6 i think, so can't blame u all for not remembering such an old song? Anw, here it is....without the last 5 secs of the song though..so if anyone have the full version, pls send me.... If anyone can sing half like her, u'll win superstar hands down....And the lyrics:
They can say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow
Anyone to succeed
Hanging clouds over me
And they can try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams
CHORUS:
'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
From me
They can do anything they want to you
lf you let them in
But they won't ever win
If you cling to your pride
And just push them aside
See
I have learned there's an inner peace I own
Something in my soul
That they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid
And darkness will fade
'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
No...
They can't take this
Precious love
I'll always have inside me
Certainly the Lord will guide me
Where I need to go
They can say anything they want to say
Try to break me down
But I won't face the ground
I will rise steadily
Sailing out of their reach
Oh Lord
They do try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams
'Cause there's a light in me that shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
[Mariah Carey- Can't Take That Away]
Dedicated to all chasing their dreams out there, dun let anyone get you down, dun let any obstacle stop u, dun stop believing in ur dreams and fairytales. Others can choose to forget, can choose to eradicate a memory or even deny your existence, but as long as you stand firm with your beliefs...what others say or do becomes inconsequential...
Even when you have forgotten, i will still remember....for you.... and no one can take that away from me.....
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