Without you
YOSHIKI EMII

aruki tsukareta yoru ni tatazumu
I stand still on this night I'm too tired to walk through

nagareru namida wo kioku ni kasanete
Crossing these flowing tears with memory

deai no kazu dake wakare wa arukedo
There are as many farewells as encounters

kagirinai toki ga tuzuku to shinjiteta
But time goes on forever, so I believed

kizu tsuke atta kotoba sae ima wa dakishime
Even the words we hurt each other with, I embrace now

furi kaeru dake I feel alone
Just turning back I feel alone

How should I love you
How could I feel you
Without you

kazoe kirenai omoide ga jikan wo
Countless memories

umetsukusu
fill in my time

onaji jidai ni umarete deatta
We were born and we met at the same time

sore zore no ai wo tashikameru tame ni
in order to reassure eachother's love

I still remember

kotae no nai ashita ni
To the coming day with no answers

yume wo motomete ita hibi wo
To the days I desired to dream

kagirinaku hirogaru sora ni mou ichido
Once again I ask

umareta imi wo
the reason of life

ima wo ikiru imi wo
the reason of living

toi kakete
To the endlessly vast sky

ikiteru koto ga toki niwa tsurakute
At times living is full of pain

sunao ni narenai jibun wo ennjiteta
I can't be honest I was fooling an act

anata wo aishite anata ni kizu tsuite
I loved you I hurt you

ai to iu kotoba no fukasa ni kizuita
I realized the depth of the word of love

Do you remember

hajimete deatta ano hi no koto
The day we first met

onaji yume wo mita toki wo
The time we dreamed the same dream

kagirinaku hirogaru sora ni mou ichido
Once again I ask

umareta imi
the reason of life

ima wo ikiru imi wo
the reason of living

toi kakete
To the endlessly vast sky

How should I love you
How could I feel you
Without you

owari no nai ai no shi wo ima anata ni
An endless poem of love To you

Even though I can't see you anymore
Your memory will live in my heart
Forever
As well as love does
So I won't say.... Good bye

[Without you - Yoshiki + Toshi]

Full lyrics and translation of yoshiki's Without you. They didn't sing the entire thing on mar 28, but i'll be waiting for the recording studio version.... Amazing...



The song just leaves me breathless..... Addicted....

"Then something happened. I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark.... and silent..... and complete.......... I have found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom.." Fight Club (1999)
Irony. That's the key word. No matter how you look, it's always there. In Love Actually, the unwilling best man of a wedding involving keira knightley. In Crash, the shot fired upon an innocent girl who thinks her "paper cloak" can protect her from bullets and hence she'll be able to protect her father. These moments, captured by a skilful director on film, provokes our senses and emotions and works them into overcharged frenzies that at the end of the day, leaves us feeling more alive.... more human. More often than not, such ironies in real life are being ignored, brushed aside, put away without a second thought because we believe that we, being the insignificant us, are undeserving of such miraculous liberations over-sensationalised and romantised by hollywood. "In a long enough time frame, the survivablity of anyone is zero." (yes, i'm obsessed with Fight Club now) Ground zero, where you start, where you end. So stop, return to ground zero and experience what you were meant to.

I'm standing on the edge
And coming to my senses
From the reverie
Never thought I would
Never thought I'd need to
Say good bye, I bid you farewell
My voiceless words are swaying the flame

I can't live without...
I can't live without
I can't live without you here in the dark
I whisper your name over again
Give me the strength to seize the light
if I should find a way

I saw a dream
We were flying in the sky without a fear
Never touched the ground, never came to my side
I tried so hard to reach out for your hand
The worthless weight kept your soul away

I can't live without...
I can't give without
I can't breath without you here in the world
Do you feel the rain?
You said love takes no pain
With or without the sun
The lurid sky still tearing me apart

Wishing that freedom would reign over the pain
Give me the strength to belive the words that
"Love will find a way..."

I can't live without...
I can't give without you here in the world
Do you feel the rain, over the pain?
Give me the strength to believe the words that
"Love will find a way..."

With or without the sun
I'll be the light that won't say good-bye
'Cause I, I know I'll be with you

[Violet UK - Unnamed Song]

I putting up this beautiful song by yoshiki in honour of him and to mark X-japan's reunion on mar 28. And of course, as a sign of respect for the creator of such wondrous music that have accompanied me through the best and worst times of my life........

Long time since I've wrote such a long post. In a long enough time frame, the survivability of this blog is.... zero also. Maybe one day when i'm drunk (not necessarily on alcohol, could be on air, on water, on life), i'll find enough courage and reason to press the "delete" button.

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

[Lifehouse - Blind]

Super old song tht's super nice....

No point in asking how, no point in asking why... I need time to.... forget

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟 心开始曲折

我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
幸福照顾就是 幸福的

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟 心开始曲折
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是 感动的

我愿意 一秒钟放弃全宇宙
骑在只有我们 紧靠的小星球

我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是 感动的

说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼
我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是 感动的

[不想懂得 - 张韶涵]

enlightened....

Oh yeah, I'll tell you something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.

Oh please, say to me
You'll let me be your man
And please, say to me
You'll let me hold your hand.
Now let me hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.

And when I touch you I feel happy inside.
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide.

Yeah, you've got that something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.

[I wanna hold your hand - TV Carpio]

Amazing variation of the original by The Beatles from the movie musical Across the Universe. Speaking of movie musical, just bought moulin rouge for 12 bucks from MJ and watched it 2wice in camp with another friend who alr watched 12 times and in the process, pretty much annoying everyone else in my company. aye.. watched 4 times b4 for me, the last being in JC... watching it again brings back flashbacks of the emotions and thoughts that were running through my head back then...

The greatest you'll ever learn is just to love... and to be loved in return