Time is defined by change. I finally understood what that means. If event A had taken place a year ago, I would know with certainty what to do, but when event A occurs now, I am at a loss. Why? Because of all the uncertainty. Shall relate a incident that happened during night navi. When the majority of the team wanted to give up and head towards the end point, I insisted on combing the area and in the end, found the checkpoint by following my gut instinct. At that point of time, I felt victorious, cos it's been a long time since I did something with passion, drive, interest and determination. And it's been a long time since I felt that I knew something with so much certainty and yet so little reason....

我怀念的，竟然是那种不可理喻，冲动的感觉....

I was only human. I'm trying to be one now.... 找自己....

Been freaking busy in camp for the past week, the worst part being having psc interview straight after night navi and then live firing in the morning b4 i can book out. 3.5 hrs of sleep and only booking out 50 mins b4 my interview = gg . Splashed around 17 bucks on taxi fare.... sianz...
bg sound is 阿沁（fromFIR) 遗失的美好... Damn nice... think it sounds better than angela's version, which proves the point again that piano and strings owns all.....

夜的宁静
是时候好好反省
月的阴晴
圆缺就像我的心

夜下着雨
天在哭泣
不知道何时才放晴
我忽然非常想念你

你的背影
让我失去了理性
你的放弃
让我迷失了自己
你的离去就像刺青
永远烙印在我的心
是如此痛而如此的美丽

我努力的想哭泣
却哭不出泪滴
一次又一次的灰心
才发现早已麻痹
终于发现自己
已经不在乎你

原来分手也能如此安宁

[孙燕姿- 安宁]

Static, cynical, under-motivated, immune.

That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don't expect to get anything back, don't expect recognition for your efforts, don't expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are.

I'm trying my best to, but is being immune to feelings better than having a whirlpool of emotions. I get the idea that I have just exchanged the devil for the deep blue sea....

The worst kind of pain are usually self-inflicted. It comes from the feeling of helplessness. Having the will yet not having the ability to change the circumstances often result in an excruciating pain that gnaws away at your soul, making you less and less of a human.

Have faith. But perhaps.... perhaps.... this is one time too many.....

Block leave's over. Going sispec tmr. I guess I should post something up here as an update. hmm... i dunno but i think every time i book out from army, i feel less of a human. True enough, there are things, precious and important, that can only be learnt through army.... but at the price of freedom, sometimes u just feel that it's not worth it.... haiz... okay... realised that my music sense is going down the drain so i shall do music therapy for every subsequent bookout from now.... and for now, i shall spam music up here....



Wonderful piece... Crystal clear vocals and the way she switches betw falsetto and her normal voice with tremendous ease is simply breathtaking..... lyrics below..

I'll be your love
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow

There's a time
You feel like you are lost
Fell the night will never end
Through the daybreak
It's hard to hold on
But there is tomorrow
Brings you to your senses
As the sun will make it's way

You'll make it there
To the place where reality and dreams
And love will be together
I'll keep the light from fading
If the clouds blind your way
And the wind sways your faith

I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
Let me see you smile

Don't you cry
Over the past
Some days might be gray
And dreary
Not easy to leave
To leave it behind
'Til the rain stops in silence
I'll be there to hold your heart

I'll be with you
'Til you find the reason for love
We take it for granted
We'll keep the time from fading
'Cuz the world is here to stay
Your hope is deeper than pain

I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow

If you would believe
Believe in the world
A vision of love
And the strength inside your heart
You'll find a way

I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone



hmm... i uploaded it as bg song once, but i tot this makes a better impact... yah... again... superb vocals....



Credits to kwan for this one... Canto pop with an orchestral twist, something that mordern pop singers should attempt to emulate... We are seeing too many pop songs with extremely skimpy arrangements (ie bubblegum pop)



I just can't get this song out of my head... Love the strings part in the middle... Yup, Boa's chio too and has a wonderful voice so tht's a plus point....



Bleah... since army rendered me with no financial means and time to watch the live musical, i shall content with watching clips from youtube...haha....