They can say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow
Anyone to succeed
Hanging clouds over me

And they can try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams

CHORUS:
'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me From me

They can do anything they want to you
lf you let them in
But they won't ever win
If you cling to your pride
And just push them aside
See I have learned there's an inner peace I own
Something in my soul
That they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid
And darkness will fade

'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me

No...They can't take this Precious love
I'll always have inside me
Certainly the Lord will guide me
Where I need to go

They can say anything they want to say
Try to break me down
But I won't face the ground
I will rise steadily
Sailing out of their reach

Oh Lord They do try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams
'Cause there's a light in me that shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me

[Mariah Carey- Can't Take That Away]
I'll remember.... not just for you.. but for myself too... and no one can take that away...

I guess the song sums up everything i have to say on my new life. My aim for the next 2 years: staying focused and not to lose direction...

Tears for what you have lost
Tears for what you will gain
Tears of sadness, tears of joy,
Having tears makes you human, makes you alive, makes you realise that you can feel...

I've never thought beyond that time
I've never imagined the pictures of that life
For now I will try to live for you and for me
I will try to live

with love,

with dreams,

and forever,

with tears....

12 hours and counting..... So much to do, so little time...

Endless Rain by X-japan. Composed on 1 dec 1989, a long 17 years ago. One can only marvel at yoshiki's vision and foresight...... No endless rain for field camps though, i hope...

Here's the vidoe of Sometimes love just ain't enough by the original singers. hmm... I'm looking for the mp3, so if anyone has, pls send me!

Perhaps to answer hammy's qn, i think i explore youtube categorically.. haha

Been thinking about how this blog has evolved, on how it seems to fall further and further away from its initial purpose and on how the freedom of expression became the restriction of expression. The only good left, it seems, is the "promoting good music" factor. Hence, perhaps this could explain my reluctance to put anything substantial up here anymore. This blog has served its purpose.... hmm... rather, it has failed to. In the new year, I guess I wouldn't have anything much to post anyway, it'll be like book in and book out dates...haha.. In any case, i'll be keeping the "good", tht is putting up good songs.

k, the bg song this time is X-Japan's Tears. I always like to point out to people that this is a song about love, but not about romantic love. I'll post the english part of the lyrics here, the jap part and its translation, u all can look it up on the internet.

Loneliness, your silent whisper
Fills a river of tears through the night
Memory, you never let me cry
And you, you never said goodbye.
Sometimes the tears blinded the love
We lost our dreams along the way
But I never thought you'd trade your soul to the fates
Never thought, you'd leave me alone

Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory
Love everlasting fades away
Alive within your beatless heart
Dry your tears with love (2x)

Yoshiki wrote this song in memory of his father who committed sucide when he was young. Perhaps seeing the song this way would give u a better appreciation of it. Rite, tht's all from me and for the first time, a full stop feels much more natural than a endless line of dots.

Out of Control. Terminated.

hmm... i wanted to post on new year's eve but ran out of time in the end... so well, instead of a sum up of 2006, i tot i'll just do a mini youtube-concert to end it off eh...

Track 1.
To start it all off, we have
才女+歌神 = wonderful song + wonderful vocals (many thanks to kwan for the recommendation)



Track 2.
Next up, 9 years ago on New Year's Eve, X-Japan performed their last performace, The Last Live in the Toyko Dome. Here's the last official item, Endless Rain. This should remain as the best youtube video for me for a long long time...



Track 3.
The bg song, sometimes love just ain't enough by Stephanie Sun.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are....sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Track 4.
The last song which is The Last Song by X-japan once again...


Encore
Since all encore pieces are cute, this one is not exception. None other than Mayday's track 10 in the new album, Born to Love(为爱而生), 宠上天... lol, not posting the song up here though, go buy the album! It's very nice!

Well... so Happy New Year everybody! Tekong awaits....

lalala... it's the chirstmas season so merry X'mas everyone. Life's pretty the same, i'm done with DVDs and books i want to watch/read i guess. On a second book by Paulo Coelho- The Zahir, it's pretty interesting but i'm taking much longer to get through this one.... finally finished it todae, will blog bout it later... lol, apart from books and dvds, went for this wine-tasting thingie last week at swissotel with my parents. (food and service this time is much better than prom and it's cheaper too!) Drank like 5 glasses of wine but in the end apart from slower reflexes, wasn't anywhere near drunk. Paid a visit to the newly opened IKEA at tampines too. Actually wanted to visit Courts too as they are side by side, but in the end took like 3 hours to walk the entire of IKEA... haha... Then on fri, had CO outing at pasir ris park, went to the children's playground(yes, of all places). But it was a fun experience climbing webs, playing on the swings and playing soccer, apart from the occasional rain tht made us run for shelter and the rope burns from climbing the webs. Went for class party at night, was supposed to be a bbq but again the rain disrupted it. Nevertheless, haven't seen the class ppl for quite some time so it was nice catching up with them. Gift exchange was o___0 though, thanks to the present situ chose for himslef..lol... On sat, had a family christmas dinner at home, my parents ordered turkey which was okay but nvr really liked them. Chicken tastes so much better... lol, maybe coz we dun have fresh turkeys around here... hmm... then on chirstmas, met up with vin and xl who just returned from tekong. Went vivocity coz xl was there with his family and so many of us haven't seen the place yet. Ate at the food court b4 *ahem helping vin find a christmas present. Speaking of which, many thanks to snl for the christmas present... at least u bothered, unlike the rest of us..haha... Spent much of todae sleeping coz of the weather, just watched death note 1 though. arh... now i want to watch death note 2.... DSTA just sent their letter for the preliminary interview- 9 jan, 2 days b4 i depart for tekong...lol...

The problem-
"The acomodador or giving-up point: there is always an event in our lives that is responsible for us failing to progress: a trauma, a particularly bitter defeat, a disappointment in love, even a victory that we did not quite understand, can make cowards of us and prevent us from moving on. As part of the process of increasing his hidden powers, the shaman must first free himself from that giving-up point and, to do so, he must review his own life and find out where it occurred."

The solution-
" That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don't expect to get anything back, don't expect recognition for your efforts, don't expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are."

Extracts from The Zahir

well... however we may try to deny, we must admit that the people and world around us are going to change. Like i said in the farewell post, people move off at different pace in different directions after a farewell, and yah, i can already detect a certain distance creeping in. It is human to feel pain, but this pain cannot and should not prevent us from acceptance and moving on, coz ultimately we need to be out there doing what we want, not what we should. So... i guess i got to get a gear on and start moving off in my own direction at my own pace...

Been listening to evergreen old sch stuff nowadays. They nvr fail to put me in a good mood, even if they are super sad songs, like the one in the bg now. haha... shall post a few more here:)







这一次我执著面对 任性地沈醉
我并不在乎 这是错还是对
就算是深陷 我不顾一切
就算是执迷 我也执迷不悔

*别人说我应该放弃 应该睁开眼
我用我的心 去看去感觉
你并不是我 又怎黱了解
就算是执迷 就让我执迷不悔

我不是你们想的如此完美
我承认有时也会辨不出真伪
并非我不愿意走出迷堆
只是这一次 这次是自己而不是谁

#要我用谁的心去体会
真真切切地感受周围
就算痛苦 就算是泪
也是属於我的伤悲

我还能用谁的心去体会
真真切切地感受周围
就算疲倦 就算是累
也只能执迷不悔

[王菲-执迷不悔]