Yay... It's finally over... S papers were not as bad as expected, but that does not guarantee a D or even a M. Pretty happy with organic section of Chem S (but where's my structured elucidation?!) and section B of physics S. haha, 3 torturous weeks of wishing it will be over soon and yet, now that it's over, i dunno wat i want to do. hmm... still addicted to s paper physics and structured elucidation(i finally understood what shireen meant when she said that structured elucidation is fun) Perhaps i should take time off and just stare into space, strange that it is always after exams that we are able to appreciate the power and ability to daydream.

okae... some ppl say x-japan's music is depressing, but well i guess it depends on the relative extent. Like the previous song Without You by Yoshiki, it can soothe your angst if you allow your emotions to flow with the music, but too much of it can depress you as by then the music dictates your emotions. Well.. just to break that impression that i listen to only "depressing" songs, here's one happy song by sodagreen to suit this post-exam mood. And finally to jen han, pls get a life and stop nit-picking other ppl's English, else go read BBC or something....

清醒前的一秒钟那窗前人影
匆匆欣赏谁眉宇追逐的游戏
我角膜快速移动不着边际
瞬间一身染色体蠢动得可以

梦想没有刻度他忽焉在前忽焉在后
让人踌躇不知该往前还是往后

谁的酣声让我影子烤焦
我却清醒谁面容冰冻飘摇
谁长出翅膀谁发现天堂
我头中充满云朵飞翔的梦
发现美洲后长存妖魔

记忆持续身体的日与夜
因谁轻快我才蹒跚旷野
谁摘下王冠谁发现宝藏
能唱出柔软清晨天使歌声
在着火的战场北讨南征

华丽舞台在上演惊涛和骇浪
静静稀释了惆怅歌舞在飞扬
就算痴人唱梦那又怎样
最终不会是白忙来疯狂疯狂

[相对论IV-苏打绿]

Yoshiki's Without You is back up on my blog. The more I listen to it, the more addictive it gets. haha. I like the way he uses music to portray the emotions rather than letting the emotions portray the music. I guess a suitable analogy would be like someone may appear nonchalant, yet you know that deep inside he/she actually does care. Reminds me of the scene in The Outsiders(yes ri ppl, sec 2 lit book) where Ponyboy busted an end of a bottle to use it to threaten some socs and after they left, proceeded to pick up the glass pieces one by one so that others would not get a flat tire. It's not about pretence and hypocrisy, it's about channeling the potentially irrational and explosive energy of emotions into something that is beautiful and can be appreciated. Yet, this form of beauty is often flawed- for being too beautiful, for distorting the true nature of emotions to cater to the aesthetic preferences of humankind. Often termed the "sinister appeal", this obsession with the "framed perfection" apparently fails right from the start, because it puts down a definition for perfection.
难道追求完美也有错？
完美主义或许没那么完美吧？
要不是就是缺乏勇气去追求这份完美？

Moving on, me and xl were discussing the m and m featured on stomp incident over msn when he asked if i felt angry at the tarnishing of the good name of our sch. My reply was after coming to rj, the sense of solidarity is lost. With an explosion of cultures and stuff, u just feel tht u can't be responsible for all these ppl who think and act so differently from u. I think that in RJ, the students are not united as a whole, but there are very strong ties among small groups of ppl. For me, I can identify with RJCO, with my class, with the bridge club ppl, with my sec sch friends, but i cannot identify myself with the school. If someone was to come up to me to ask about the blogger/sucide/stomp incident, my natural reaction would not be an angry response in defense of the school, rather it would be a compromised acceptance- that yes, those ppl were from RJ, BUT, I do not know them that well, hence shrugging off any collective responsibility. I guess that sums up the role of RJ for me for the past 2 years- just an institution, a structure in place, nothing more.

okae.. moving on the the papers, just point out some of the controversies here and there and my stand. yes, i agree it's not good to harp on exams, but when u leave an exam realising that you did not knoe something, i think it's important that you go find out the answer and complete the learning process.

Maths Paper 1 and 2- not much problems, for numerical methods, the qn explicitly states that the series converges. So, my stand is tht you are supposed to explain the convergence to alpha rather than why it converges.

Chem Paper 3- BF3 is a lewis acid (electron acceptor), hence it forms co-ordinate bond with (CH3)3N, not some strange ionic bond.

Physics Paper 3- Proving electron is a particle means to prove that it has mass and charge. Strangely, they were kind enough to provide the ans in qn 5, that is using an electric field to show deflection. A magnetic field would be fine also.

I'm not an econs pro, so shall refrain from commenting on econs. Papers this year were quite fair? cept for maybe Physics paper 2, which tested more on general knowledge than on Physics. 2 mores S papers. Time to mug. Til then...



The last bg song i put up was by this taiwanese band sodagreen.Here's the mv. They have quite a few nice songs that are worth listening to....

One week down.... 2 and a half more A level subjects to go b4 S papers.... Hang in there ppl. It'll be over soon enough. haha... got sian of the bg song within 2 days, decided to put this new one which goes easy on the ear...

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着

你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚

就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡

最后谁也都苍老

[苏打绿-小情歌]

Came up here just to change the bg music. After hearing this song, one can only wonder if there is any song that cannot be translated across languages. Presenting the english version of 新鸳鸯蝴蝶梦, can't let you go...

Only you know how I feel
Only you know what I miss
Can't you see you're just what I need

After all that we've been through
After all I've done for you
You should know my love is for real

Am I asking for too much
Am I waiting for too long
All I need is your tender touch

Don't you know I'm on my knees
Don't you know I'm begging please
Won't you take a look at me now

No matter how hard I try
Can't get you off my mind
I just don't know what to do to have you back here again
I can't let go, can't let you know
I'm trying don't you know
All my love goes to show
I can't go on without you

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情他骗不了人

我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘份
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真

为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到它变冷

爱我的人对我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

[游鸿明-爱我的人和我爱的人]

Revisiting old songs again.... Can't seem to get them out of my head... haha. Talking bout old songs, Joey Mcintyre's Stay The Same just played on my playlist and i must say that i never did pay much attention to the lyrics before.

Don't you ever wish you were someone else?
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you¹re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,cuz there¹s nothin' 'bout you I would change.

First paper in 3 days. Everyone 加油！ May the force be with you! (perhaps this should only apply for ppl taking physics. ha)