Tuesday, December 21, 2004

heheh, shall start my re-posting here. First up, from "somewhen" in sec 3, combination of a series of posts

RICO farm(aka Animal Farm 2) proudly written by me(I still can't believe I actually wrote all these)

Post1
Todae ah... let me tell u a story...based on Animal Farm. ZJ is Snowball, the other candidates for chairman is Napolean, XQ is Mr Jones, the farmers are the Exco and Ben Ang...well...is Benjamin. the other animals are represented by the rest of the CO. Well the story goes like this....The animals will rebel against the farmers in 2 weeks time and Snowball and Napolean are fighting over the leadership position that would be empty after the farmers are being exiled. THe conclusion is that Snowball convinces everyone with his windmill plan and his ideology of communism and beat Napolean to the leadership position. I hereby offer my congrats to ZJ and i will do so again in 2 weeks time

Post 2
todae is...or okay, was national dae celebrations. it also marks the handover form the sec 4 to the sec 3. played with the band without score, felt veri relaxed on stage...school ended at at 1.15, 35 min after the normal time, screwed!!! had lunch, then had the handover. got position as librarian, and as expected, zongjin got the chairman position and i'm am therefore authorised to release this blog. started on my job immedialtely, didn't feel comfortable watching the photocopy lady print scores, and just standing around, guess have to get use to it. oh yeah, kevin brought a damn cute toy dino to school todae. reaction was diff with diff ppl. Deng tried to rape it on the pretext of performing CPR, zongjin tried to get it to write( forcing it to write), boon was quite facinated by it until he saw the "made in China" tag, then he threw it back to kevin, Samuel hem, just kept turning around to grab it away from kevin. a small soft toy, so many complications, but must agree that its damn CUTE!!!!! When we were giving three cheers to dunno hu, i thought i heard smone say hip hip hulei???
had dinner with zongjin and the 2 terrorist and got back home at 9.30, great record


Post 3
Half dae???? or juz another fri????yes, thats the topic of discussion for todae. I emphasize again, its a half dae and i reached home at 8.15? maybe i could have reached home earliest like 6, but still half dae???? this can be traced to mondae Promethium Dae where Old Major declared a half dae on Fri. Discussion was on on where to g on Fri. The first piece of bad news came immediately verdict swith pigs taking 1h for the education of animals after lesson ends and refusing to budge. The second came nvt dae when one of the commandments says that practise would commence as usual on Fri. There was a shout of protest (or was there not) and for the first time after Snowball's taking the lead on Animal Farm, there was discontent among the animals. Some openly voiced their protests, some made a mental note to rebel(not to come todae), Some took it in their stride just like Boxer does as they went with the maxim "Snowball is always rite" and " I will train harder" Thus again, idealists would look at this and shake their heads once more as the communist state once again fails to become reality and "democracy" is once again compromised. Animal Farm 2 has reached a turning point, building up a steady climax. How will Animal farm 2 end up? What will Snowball do? Will the animals rebel again?? Stay tuned to find out.

Post 4
I have a dream....
Martyn Luther King Jr said that for peace between the blacks and whites in America. I say that again todae for a better future for Animal Farm 2. Whether a ideal would work out depends on its ppl. If no animal takes one more grain than it should, all animals consider others before self and that all animal believes in making Animal Farm a better place, Animal Farm would have worked out. Now that its Animal Farm 2, we have another chance, thus it's up to us to topple it or realise it. Sucess or Failure?The destiny all in our hands.......

Post 5
todae's highlight is com meeting, continuing Animal Farm 2. Todae the representatives from each group of animals met up with the evicted humans. It was a rather ironic situation, now that the animals ask for advice from the humans on running the farm, though Mr Jones seems a little can be bothered. The focus todae is on Snowball on how he would conduct this meeting. It turns out that he could not make much impact as he is too democratic. The humans have warned us, democracy would get u nowhere, communism even worst, only a capitalist farm would be able to stand on its own. We have outline our programme for the farm for the nxt yr, no matter what, we would stand by our leader, Snowball, we would rise and fall with the farm. Uncertainty lays in the path of the farm, what would happen? Will democracy or even communism work? We dunno and we are going to find out.

Ending Coming Soon (actually its already posted)

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Dedicated to all who know me,

As 2004 draws near to the end, I would like to take this oppurtunity to thank all that spent this meaningful year with me. You can be a passing acquaintance, a stranger or my friend, just would like to say that I appreciate your participation in my life and I look forward to continuing my relations with you in 2005. Time passes really quickly, now the 16- yr old me would be attending JC the next year. In my 4 years in RI, I really have to thank a lot of ppl, teachers included. But first of all, my circle of friends in RI, for always being there and slugging out the 4 yrs with me in the premier institution. Special mention to the 2B ppl who really made my stay in RI really enjoyable. Surprising as it seems, I seem to be more attached to the 2B ppl than the current 4D ones. Perhaps its elitism, or maybe its just me. Just felt that in the future, the chance of a 4D guy dao-ing me is much higher than a 2B one. Aniwae, back to the point, thank you all. 2nd group of ppl who I need to thank, my teachers. Special mention to a few here. Mr Joseph Wong, for turning my SS Hist from C5 in Sec 3 to A1 during prelims and of course his jokes and experiences sharing sessions. Mr Tan Puay Hock, for making me see a whole new dimension in Chinese that I never knew in my lower sec years. Mr Lee Eng Kiat, though he already left RI, for making me believe in the CO again and showing me what is true passion. Mr Mark Wee, for his antics during class, Mrs Yau, for her beautiful best-wishes card, Mrs Lim, for her blatant theories of lions eating vitamin C tablets and all that helped me b4. Well, this signifies the end of the thank-you list within RI, but there is still ppl that I need to thank.
My primary school friends who had known me for as long as 10 years, Andy, Cedrick, Justin, Bryan, Jirong, Khairul, Izzat, Iskander and so on, would be spamming if I go on. Thank you all for making the effort to keep in contact with me and to the basketball team then, thank you all for still coming down to ball occasionally. Mr Charles Peters, whom we just met during teachers' day, thank you for your guidance. Though we may go separate ways in the future, no gap is too far for us to bridge. As long as you all give me a call, I will not dao you. lol, thts it I guess for my thank-you list for all my friends this year. Will be rounding up the year with a series of re-posts and recaps, I guess, to "relive the moments".
It's amazing how depression is infectious, before you know it, it overwhelms you and you don't even know it

What started out as a outing for me ended up in emotional throes....I just couldn't explain it. When surrounded by ppl faced with rejection, one can't help but just think of one's own life. When ppl starts to throw in your face what they experienced and expects you to react, one tends to be lost. At one point, i almost wanted to say something like "What's rejection? You dun understand true pain." but i stop myself, cuz i know that i cannot comment without having experienced it myself. What I have experienced was far less but i can say much more painful. Give me dissapointment and regret, i'll choose dissapointment anyday. Regret is forever, it nags at you and never goes away, subjecting you to constant sadness....

For what flutters a 12-yr old's heart must be different from what moves a 16-yr old, one cannot expect a person's emotional state to come to a standstill at 12 yr old. A person would grow mentally and this growth is human's greatest gift and terror. How I wish that I was a 12 yr-old right now still in my primary sch and yet I wish that when I was 12 yr-old, I was as mature as I was now. How I wish time can heal all wounds including wounds of regret. Regrets forces you to look back in time and break out in tears, depriving you of the right to live.

But for what I am and what I'll be, my friends and family made me strong and made me believe again. Regret has now become a window of my memories that becomes open now and then but with the strength given to me by the ppl around me, the pain becomes less hurtful.... So to my 2 friends, do not fret coz u have nothing to regret. Live on with zest and spirit coz there's hope in tmr.... Tears might well up on a few occasions but they always dry, just make sure that no scar is left on the heart. Live life without regret...

一张文章画上了句号,代表着另一张文章的开始.....

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Mediacorp's release of voting results of SG idol little comfort for Taufik fans

While earlier being bombarded by the media for not being transparent enough, Mediacorp decided to come clean with the voting results of SG idol. Taufik won by a large margin, which was not surprising to me. However, this yet provided little comfort for Taufik fans who were enraged when Sly got the recording contract from BMG. Now, they are further incensed that when Taufik was the undisputed champion, Sly got an equal share of the pie, as it seems. lol, my eplanation for this seemingly unfair treatment was covered in the previous blog. For those still unconvinced, let me draw you a clearer picture. Imagine Taufik's album among others in Europe and America. Then imagine Sly's album among others in China, Taiwan and HK. Which is more likely to come off the shelves? Anyway, just got "I dream" by Taufik from me friend. Looking for Sly's version, which i think is much better. Taufik was flat throughout the song, though he hit the high notes pretty okay...Anyone got Sly's version, please send me. Meanwhile, the lyrics....very meaningful....

I Dream

In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly

In my heart
There's a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are

Doesn't matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

If there's a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There's no defeat, if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There's a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when worlds have come apart

It doesn't matter rich or poor
Or the things you've done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream

I dream of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

Friday, December 03, 2004

Though togetherness is already impossible, your one smile still warms me, your silent protector. And while you sing in the festive seasons and cry in the slumps of your life, I will watch over you, share your joy and feel your pain......Till that day comes where you find someone who could take care of you better than I do, then will I walk away.......thats what love is all about.....
"我会学着放弃你,是因为我太爱你"


hi ppl, I'm back and I'm 16 already. A milestone of my life, a landmark on my history. Yet for a such a significant event, 24hrs seem so short and unable to match up to the occasion. There is just so many things to do, to reflect, to plan and so on....Time is a factor we are fighting against. This time round, I invited both my pri sch and sec sch friends to a chalet. A perfect reunion, one would muse, yet it ended up as a beautiful disaster. U knoe like the scene from Deep Impact, where the father and daughter stood at the beach and watched the meteorite crashed into the ocean and the tsunami approaching, then they hugged each other. Such was the feeling then. I had forgotten a important detail in my planning, that is the discriminatory slant to elitism, noting that discrimination actually happens both ways. I always tot discrimination was a one-sided affair, yet now I understood why discrimination stood, becoz ppl are unwilling to adapt, ppl are unwilling to move out of their comfort zone, and thus discrimination becomes the simplest excuse they can give to avoid the other party. And thus, the chalet party became a obvious split between 2 factions, each engrossed in what they are doing and treating as though the other faction wasn't there. Well...I as middleman was trying to bridge the obvious gap but after a while, I gave up and the beautiful disaster sets in. Why was it beautiful, you may ask. Well...for simple events such as these....My pri sch friends and I sat outside while the "RI contigent" was busy in the gambling den and we just talked for 2hrs non-stop. It has been 4 years since so many of us got together and just talk and crap. For events like.....the second barbecue....jx trying to start the fire for the second time and ended up with his face in ash...richard trying to take a picture of a cockroach...for the morning stroll and soccer and breakfast...For such priceless and beautiful memories, they are beautiful...Still, I have to apologise to those who felt left out or offended, hope that in view of such beautiful memories, u would accept this as a beautiful disaser..... My birthday closed with laughter, smiles, nostalgia and without a girlfriend....(last part was added on special resquest:X)

Singapore Idol
Yes, we have just witnessed the birth of our very own SG idol, Taufik, it seems to be have won the competition, yet these few days, the media threw up fantastical suggestions and debate on who is the real winner. One reader says that he suspect that it was rigged for Mediacorp would not reveal figures of the voting and he demanded his money back. lol, that was the closest suggestion to who really won and the rest of the articles were babbling on how taufik won and yet slyvester stole the limelight. Firstly, they are missing the point. Secondly, I suspect foul play. And thus I present to you my take on the true winner of SG idol.

HEADLINES: TRUE WINNER OF SG IDOL IS DRUMROLL.....MEDIACORP AND THE TELECOM COMPANIES
gasp*how is that possible? A Taufik fan claims incredulously. Taufik won SG idol. She insisted. Yup, I would agree that Taufik won SG idol competition, but everyone seems to be missing the point that the TV station and the telecom companies are truly the ppl benefiting from this event. Guess the idol fever haven't died done. Look, they tell us 3 million votes were casted throughout SG idol and 1.1 million on the finals. Do a bit of maths and you'll see that they add up to 1.5 million bucks for the show and 0.55 million for the finals. lol, thats assumong that they are telling the truth. Plus, viewership on the finals skyrocketed. Count the no. of commercials they put in. Considering that they charge more for the peak in viewership, count the profits yourself, not forgetting that they do have sponsors that fork out money for the event. At the end of the day, what happened? One, SG's economy gets a boost due to the sudden activity of cash transactions. Two, many parents would scream at their children when they receive their telephone bils. Three, there is no World Idol, so the competition was in vain. And finally, Sly stealing the limelight with his "equal treatment" as the SG idol.
heyhey, will just share a few lines on what i think about this equal treatment. You can't blame BMG coz they are driven by capitalism. They are bound by contract to give Taufik a contract and they'll lose lots of money if they do not. They gave Sly a contract coz they knoe that Sly would bring in much more money than Taufik and they need money... You cannot deny that Taufik's market is much more limited and restricted than Sly's. Just imagine his album side by side with all other english albums that come from Europe. Can he make an impression? Though he has a good voice, can he draw in mass appeal? For Sly, it's another story. SG idol proved that if he produces a album, it'll be snatched off shelves in a flash. He has the ability to generate public interest and public's extreme opinions, including those that hate him throughly. Yet to a recording company, when someone is extremely loved and hated at the same time, omg, its free advertisement.