我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找遗失的美好...

jing yin prac 2 days ago, its becoming like a sight-reading session of crazy songs. Somehow the conductor there assumes i can play the timpani pretty well and i am currently slapped in the face by 11 pages of timapani scores. lol, i just completed my debut on the timpani the last concert and the longest timpani score i had was only 3 pages long. Now i have Sa Di Er, which requires precision in rhythm and a re-arranged Jin She that requires me to change notes like every 5 bars. Well... i just need to be pitch-perfect and brush up on my rolling technique by the end of the yr...

Pessimistic VS Optimistic
Deng wrtoe an entry a few days ago on being a pessimist and how the world "fails" him in a way. My objective here today is not really to try turn him into an optimist but perhaps trying to dissect this issue on being optimistic or pessimistic. First we need to see the difference btw an optimist and an idealist. I consider myself an idealist but not an optimist. I hope for a better situation but is apparantly "rationale" enough to see tht it would not happen. But does that make me a pessimist, i wonder? I think not. I think that is still a step away from pessimism. When an idealist is repeatedly disillusioned by whar he sees and loses the very important motivation to hope or even fantasize, then will he be reduced to a pessimist. I deny being an optimist, but I would believe and hold on to a 0.01% chance, would you?

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽地飞，盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

ps: Everyone seems to be going crazy over Angela(I surprise myself at times, the above statement can be interpreted in 3 diff ways depending on who's reading it)