leave me alone!!!..... If I had left u alone, u would drown in ur self despair and self pity

How strange... half of the time we speak, words that come don't actually represent what we thoght at that time, perhaps it is human's hyprocracy at work. We think that we cannot show our true self to another individual, cause them our weaknesses would be controlled by that individual. Is the current society that bad? When we look at society, we always think of it as bad, but when we look at individuals within the society that we know, we see their good. What does this tells us??? It tells us that a person always have two sides, same for a society. When it comes to a person u know, u do not judge, cause u know his good. However, when it comes to a person u do not know, just like society, we tend to judge and when we judge, we tend to look at the bad side of a person, and no matter what he does would be deemed as bad if he left a bad impression the first time round. I know not many ppl actually read my blogs, but if u happen to come across this, take this as a pleading from me, " don't judge ppl from impressions", 90% of the time u'll find that u actually misunderstood the person, so......

yesterdae was open house. We were allocated slots to perform at the area in front of the atrium. When i arrived in the morning, i knoe that it's going to be screwed, the whole band was down there, while we are sending our small sections..... worse of all, our slot is always after theirs. In the morning, it was still okae as there weren' many ppl. In the afternoon, u couild tell the difference. The SEC1 band played "Jurrasic Park" , there was a crowd in front. After their performance, we started moving in, ppl started moving away. So...should get my point. The last performance was put up by erhu. First, the sec 1 played the school song. Considering that they were Sec1s, their performance was brillant. The Sec2 put up a item that was decided 2 hours ago and i had to dig for my score for them??? Anyway, end product, we screwed it. The last item by Marcus and Zongjin, 2 ppl, sitting there playing erhu. I've seen Guang Ming Xing at SCH lor, it was acceptable then, now with 2 ppl, and that kind of atmosphere, forget it man. Comparing that performing to the band simplest song, it was already a far gap. The band simplest song that dae was "i love u baby"( the one from Carlsberg ad), and already there was a drum solo for that Boon to show off again. Not that i'm biased against Chinese Music, but if our percussion section was to try a piece, it could almost never match up with Boon 1 person playing. I'm speaking the truth, so punch me if u want, coz the truth got to be out somedae... i see ppl enquring about the band, for CO, we would be lucky if someone was watching us other than our own ppl...haiz....

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