heh... kk....15mb per day is too little...therefore i'm putting up this midi file for now... the slower and more relaxed version of "Close to me" in Long Vaction OST... it lacks in expression and the flow of music is somewhat jagged (obviously cos it's a midi file) so pls bear with it....

hmm.... its 4 weeks from christmas... i just realised....

Clinging on sounds so negative.... as though it'a almost desperate, filled with reluctance and a certain inertia... whereas insistence sounds positive, as though it's the right thing to do, so righteous and filled with passion....

Yet in real life, it's so hard to draw the line betweeen clinging on and insisting...

He clung on, he insisted....

当寒风吹过，
不知是冷，还是心凉了...
当闪电划过，
不知是看到了，还是再也不会看到...
当雷声响起，
不知是愤怒，还是无奈的感叹...
当雨点掉下，
不知是老天的可怜，还是无情的讥笑...
但我知道雨后会出现彩虹，
虽然是幻影，却无限的美丽...
我也知道雨后天会晴，
因为我心中抱着希望，
虽然渺茫，却很奇妙...

哭不见得是伤心，因为哭过的眼睛，看到的是全新的世界，只怕心中的死结还没打开... 要记得的是，真正需要哭的不是眼睛，而是那颗被伤害过的心....

听 X-japan-"tears", A1- "like a rose", "heaven by your side", LOTR- Return of the king, Utada Hikaru-"first love" 有感而发.....

hmm...symphonic metal music? lol....

All of the hate and all of the sadness
Have melted away
Nothing remains here
Close by, I see love trying to take a shape
As I reach out for it,
The love breaks up before my very eyes

Everywhere, there flows.... BLUE BLOOD

(baby)想对你说声对不起
用错的方式去爱你 因为我太在意(如果没有你)
我的世界只剩回忆 每天只面对孤寂 已来不及
再说我爱你

yest....a girl sang the above lines and got herself into 校园superstar... Sweet voice, but dunno whether chio or not.....too far from stage to see... The lyrics are strangely meaningful...like the english version of "Purest of Pain" ( originally in Spanish)

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.


Yest morning, there was CO prac and some RG sec4s came and joined our prac... Even with the addition of bl and gillian, the perc section stands at a miserable 4ppl... lol, we did 斗牛 during dazu and khoo didn't managed to finiah.... Didn't even reach the perc solo part... i think i need some rhythm training, esp with triplets... keep messing them up...

After prac, went to have lunch with the CO peeps at S11. Then, we chased bl away to hsing hai to move instru while the rest of us went to watch the auditions at J8.. The judges were very picky, either tht or the ppl auditioning are all cmi... lol, but some of them sang quite well and were rejected as well... We stood there for quite a while, b4 me and weixiong realised tht we had to go for hsinghai concert soon... So we decided tht we'll leave once a person gets thru the audition and up steps the abovementioned girl with Coco lee's "Baby 对不起"...

Hsinghai concert was quite relaxed... The rehearsal and stuff went by pretty quickly.. The concert was at VCH...last time i performed there was the RI and SN combined concert... hmm... i "discovered" tht actually VCH acoustics are far superior than SCH and esplanade... shen lao shi thinks so too... It doesn't eat up ur strings section sound and somehow for the CO, the sound tht the audience hear is strangely balanced as compared to SCH and esplanade... As we were only playing after the interval, the RI ppl spent most of time in the one of the changing/tuning rooms playing floating bridge and asshole daidee... Floating bridge gave me a headache due to non-conventional cardplay and the need to memorise 13 more cards due to the lack of a dummy... When it was time to perform, i strangely felt no pressure... Perhaps it's due to the nature of the songs, to go with the theme, all songs are famous chinese tunes or to put it bluntly "pop of the old"... The familiar melodies just put you at ease when playing. Communist songs are so nice...摘苹果的时候is so cute... After the performance, packed up a little and went home... It damn shuang when u dun have to move instru coz thts the job of the SL.....lol