Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing?

i guess not...

It's like with music. Play with heart. Play because you love playing and that you are happy playing it.

come what may

i believe my world needs a healthy dose of optimism....

Rag showed the best and the worst of human nature. The best invoked the passion from the heart, bringing tears to even the most stone-hearted person. The worst reveled in narcissistic ego. The worst kind of ego - one that indulges in self pity and blames the circumstances to provide solace to one's ego. Joel said something that struck a chord within me today: The first step is taking responsibility. If you are not willing to take charge of the circumstances, you cannot be given credit when things go well.

It's only 3rd day of school and I'm thinking, maybe i should end it all. This whole game is getting quite ridiculous.

wishing you were somehow here again

It's like with music nothing else matters. <-- My facebook status. Some thought it was just the euphoria of the concert making me say that, but I really meant it.. as in I really felt so after the concert. It's like finding back a part of you that you have lost.

From Ju hua Tai onwards, I was totally sucked into the music. Everything just felt so right. Phantom was a first just a wonderful melody, but reading the lyrics a few day before just added so much emotions and energy into the song. Music of the night became so much darker and wishing you were somehow here again started to have a hopeful/optimistic ring to it.

It was like the past year had been a horror story, too much spite and negative energy, like the lyrics in the music of the night. The last 2 months were appalling Now it doesn't feel right either. I am now willing and able to walk out on any and everyone that pushes me too far, but that's still too much negativity eh. Oh well, at least it is a step forward from taking everything that comes along.

"Human are political animals" <-- that has been my favourite advice to people lately and to be honest, it's getting a little too much on my nerves. Our "leaders" today do not fight for the collective good, nor do they ponder about it, instead, they fight for power, gains and fame. It is sad that the science of leading people has become the tool for controlling people. I'm not sure whether I want to partake in this senseless game anymore. No one seems to be able to put themselves past adam smith's invisible hand - perhaps that is why it is called the invisible hand.

It's funny how life plays out sometimes. When you are so set on being the wind, fleeting and sublime, someone had to come along with a wind chime and make whatever you are doing so wrong into something of beauty., the gentle clattering of metal pipes and the blending of colours of a spinning wheel. Life is just so mocking though, after showing you a preview, it shuts the door on you and say "you don't deserve what I have to offer after all that nonsense you did."

Indeed i don't, but thanks for letting me see the light.

and it was not meant to be

does the chapter end now?

the tmrs that i face now has turned from an exciting prospect into an impending sense of dread and perhaps this is really karma....

defying gravity

wow... i'm actually back here again, thanks to a friend to reminded me of this blog's existence a few days back. i wonder if i'll have the discipline and motivation to revive this but well, let's try..

life is a blur now, four camps have passes and four events are coming. i'm living each day for the next. Pathetic? But isn't this what i wished for at the start of last year? - To have so many things that I can't even stop to think. It wasn't all in vain though. Some of the best times in this hols were consequences of me taking everything that came my way.

Term's starting. I'll need to put an end to all this nonsense. Funny again how I can't keep people who matters most close to me. But i'll try, that's the best i can do, to try defying gravity.

I'm through accepting limits, 'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change , But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of , Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love, It comes at much too high a cost