Monday, August 02, 2010

wishing you were somehow here again

It's like with music nothing else matters. <-- My facebook status. Some thought it was just the euphoria of the concert making me say that, but I really meant it.. as in I really felt so after the concert. It's like finding back a part of you that you have lost.

From Ju hua Tai onwards, I was totally sucked into the music. Everything just felt so right. Phantom was a first just a wonderful melody, but reading the lyrics a few day before just added so much emotions and energy into the song. Music of the night became so much darker and wishing you were somehow here again started to have a hopeful/optimistic ring to it.

It was like the past year had been a horror story, too much spite and negative energy, like the lyrics in the music of the night. The last 2 months were appalling Now it doesn't feel right either. I am now willing and able to walk out on any and everyone that pushes me too far, but that's still too much negativity eh. Oh well, at least it is a step forward from taking everything that comes along.

"Human are political animals" <-- that has been my favourite advice to people lately and to be honest, it's getting a little too much on my nerves. Our "leaders" today do not fight for the collective good, nor do they ponder about it, instead, they fight for power, gains and fame. It is sad that the science of leading people has become the tool for controlling people. I'm not sure whether I want to partake in this senseless game anymore. No one seems to be able to put themselves past adam smith's invisible hand - perhaps that is why it is called the invisible hand.

It's funny how life plays out sometimes. When you are so set on being the wind, fleeting and sublime, someone had to come along with a wind chime and make whatever you are doing so wrong into something of beauty., the gentle clattering of metal pipes and the blending of colours of a spinning wheel. Life is just so mocking though, after showing you a preview, it shuts the door on you and say "you don't deserve what I have to offer after all that nonsense you did."

Indeed i don't, but thanks for letting me see the light.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

and it was not meant to be

does the chapter end now?

the tmrs that i face now has turned from an exciting prospect into an impending sense of dread and perhaps this is really karma....

Monday, July 26, 2010

defying gravity

wow... i'm actually back here again, thanks to a friend to reminded me of this blog's existence a few days back. i wonder if i'll have the discipline and motivation to revive this but well, let's try..

life is a blur now, four camps have passes and four events are coming. i'm living each day for the next. Pathetic? But isn't this what i wished for at the start of last year? - To have so many things that I can't even stop to think. It wasn't all in vain though. Some of the best times in this hols were consequences of me taking everything that came my way.

Term's starting. I'll need to put an end to all this nonsense. Funny again how I can't keep people who matters most close to me. But i'll try, that's the best i can do, to try defying gravity.

I'm through accepting limits, 'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change , But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of , Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love, It comes at much too high a cost

Thursday, December 31, 2009

后青春期的诗

2009 的最后一天...

某人送了某人一本关于梦想的书.
但某人却麻木地活在残酷的现在.
直到某人终于离开的那一天,
某人才意识到那本被冷落的书.
或许某人的心机也没那么重嘛,
但这世界就是因巧合而美丽.

人因梦而伟大,但我们总爱欺负有梦想的人.
青春的成长期, 我们总抱着一种 ‘我长大以后绝对不要成为我们看不起的那种大人’的态度.
现在的我们,不就一步一步地蜕变成当初我们嗤之以鼻的大人.

现在的我,已让三年前的我失望, 更何况是十年前的我...

所以2010 年的最重要的第一件事,就是得和十年前和三年前的我鞠躬道歉.
虽然让你们失望了,但现在的我不会再重蹈覆辙了.

好吧... 拿出一张字条,写出自己的梦想吧...
写好后放在一个瓶子里,埋在一棵大树下,十年后再回来吧它挖出,看看自己到底实现梦想了吗..

你不能害怕你不相信的东西。
只有幼稚的人,才能改变这个世界。因为他们幼稚到,完全不懂得害怕。

Saturday, October 24, 2009

second chance

once bitten, twice... stupid...

because i will never risk losing a friend again.