You know, sometimes when you want to say something.. express a point and then the words come out all wrong... It just makes you feel so helpless and fruastrated. It's like you know what's the problem and how to solve it, but.... you're not the right person, it's not the right time, not the right circumstances....

2 straight lines intersect at a point and they diverge after that.
Parallel lines however, either do not intersect or intersect at all points....

Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of prosperity
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know theres always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say

Chorus:
Was I out of my head? was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Dont matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If youre sad then its time you spoke up too

Chorus
Repeat chorus

[Fastball- Out Of My Head]



Credits to kwan for intro-ing the chinese version of the song... pretty cute mv

虽然你脾气坏对待朋友又差凸槌又更爱牵拖
佳在你遇到我不爱计较的我算你坏人有好命

我走路你坐车你吃饭我洗碗你被欺负我拼命
若为了爽到你可以艰苦到我因为咱缘分不可散

有你我才未孤单
有你的陪伴我才有靠山
你若不爽我是你的垃圾车
每天听你的心声

有你我才未孤单
有你的陪伴我才有靠山
你若欢喜我是你的垃圾车
每天听你唱歌

感情若想要满杯底就要呼干这杯就爱饮呼干
这杯你饮呼干这杯我饮呼干
咱这箱拢饮呼干拢饮呼干

[五月天 - 垃圾车]

whee.... kk... bought Mayday's "new" CD, 离开地球表面 JUMP! haha.... and as usual, Mayday never fails to make one happy and high after listening to them.

I seriously have no idea what i can do now but to watch and see........ and perhaps..... pray.....

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Bridge:
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall, in love, with you?

[BSB- How Did I fall in love with you?]

Note: This post was never meant to be depressing, rather it's a calm and careful contemplation of the 8 months that have passed....

Now tht I'm sombre and awake, i find it hard to describe this state of emptiness. The inability to think has transformed into a rather complex reluctance to think - for maybe the obvious logic of certain issues can inflict substantial amount of frustration and pain. The cacophony of army life has simmered to a droning but still irritating background noise; the angst and enmity towards the organisation have cooled to a weary and reluctant acceptance of the way things are. Dun get me wrong, I'm not brainwashed to start agreeing with their methods and ways of doing things, but rather, it's the realisation that one has neither power nor ability to effect a revolutionary change and that the continuation in the attempt to do so would only result in unhappiness generated for both you yourself and the people around you. I think i'm starting to understand the implicit responsibility one holds to people whom one cares for or vice versa. The question of "what else would you lose if nothing at all matters?"can be answered rather simply. Yes, you dun lose anything, but you can cause others to lose something, something like happiness, love, faith, joy and so on. To put it simply across in an example- for me, whether I'm at home or in camp dun really matter that much to me, but to my parents, the mere presence of me at home actually mean something to them. So in a way, there's a responsibility on me to ensure that I do not get held back in camp unnecessarily. To conclude this point, let me just add tht this applies not only to army matters but to all aspects of life - tht while personal concerns must be addressed, the implicit external responsibilities cannot be ignored.

light at the end of the tunnel..... hope? .... think twice.... it might be an oncoming train....

p.s. I'm pretty unnerved by the clinical and passive style I wrote this paragraph, tht's why i stopped rather abruptly. Sometimes i think i try too hard to be who i was b4... Though it is a common saying that it is simple to forget everything and start from square one again, the problem is that each and every time, the square one is diiferent - bcos of the route that was taken to reach it, just like in the movie De ja vu...



With subtitles this time....