Rico farm 2 (aka Animal Farm 2) (Continued)

Post 1
Society has progressed to such a stage where thinking itself have become a double-edged knife

Whoa, its been more than 1 month since I've updated this place. Sec 4 is indeed a busy year and yeah, I'm not really enjoying it rite now:X(Imagine 3 months later) lol, anw, in this 6-7 weeks since the start of the year, its been rather bumpy, especially where RICO is concerned. Within this 6-7 weeks, we actually witness more contraversies and unhappy issues than during the long 6 weeks holiday. Perhaps the fact that the concertS are approaching finally sank in. Chaotic I would describe the last few wk and definitely much more to improve on. Our TIC is not being very helpful either, thus we will have to depend on oursleves. One day, the sun will shine again and hopefully we'll pull off a miracle as beautiful as rainbow.
I know its not good to be pessimistic but in my current mood and state of mind, i can't help but be so. There's only a thin line between being practical than pessimistic. Similarly, there is only a thin line between being optimistic than irrational. In only so few wks, a lot of facts hit me.
1. There is just so much to what you can do, sometimes you just can't help but feel helpless and the helplessness would eat into you and become fruastrations and the ppl around you tend to be where you vent your fruastrations.
2. Ppl are "built" differently from one another. Some are meant to play big roles, some are meant to play small roles and some are just there to wreck the show.
3. When rumours spread and uncertain information is passed around, the organisation then tends to become confused and somehow because of this disarray, its morale would drop.
4. For everything that happens whether it is within control or not, there need to be someone responsible. When something goes wrong, we always need a scapegoat.
5. Practising 10 hrs per wk can and will take its toll both physically and mentally.
6. We are so screwed up and yet some ppl still don't realise it.

lol, facts are they? observations rather but it concurs with sociology, this is the way humans behave. Still, I believe that one day it will change. Though my strength and ability will not change many, the thought still remains. It is in human nature to be romantic, to be obsessed with things that will not come true. Perhaps when one day I stop being romantic, then the society will change. Again, I'm being romantic:X

Post 2
At the speed the society progress/regress and change, our worst enemy could become our best friend and vice versa. So many ppl take things on the superficial level that it sort of eats into time and degrades them...

Reality check. Its currently 2 weeks and 2 days to our first of 2 concerts in 2 months. How do I feel? Screwed:X:X:X... Shen lao shi is coming down on Wed to "review" our standard...Once again, I'm sure we'll disappoint him and need to be prepared for another earful. Wonder if he'll get fed up with us. Still seriously looking at our dear percussion section, I think its considered a great improvement since many, many years. However, as shen lao shi said, ppl said you've improved, but thats becoz you were too lousy in the first place. lol, no one will understand what the section is going thru rite now. Its like a change that supposed to start long ago is finally starting but its members are disillusioned by the obstacles standing in front. To be able to get a percussion based piece rite in 3 months is seriously a little impossible, considering the standard of the section. Still, this memory of screwing up and hard practice would not go into bad memories, neither would it enter good memories. These are memories that we would remember and keep in our heart and it will affect our lives, the way we think, the way we view things. Like it goes "Failure is the first step towards sucess". Quoting from William Hung "I've done my best and I have no regrets."

School and CCA are just like two spheres of control of the sec4 life nowadays. Everyday, there would be pressure on u to do something, be it academic or outside ciriculam. Life becomes a cycle that we cannot break away from. We cannopt stop either, for it would mean backpedalling all the way to square one. So like boxer in animal farm, "I will work harder" to conform to such a system. Just to reflect, the 3 yrs before, I have taken from RI so much that now its like payback time, our turn to return to the sch wat it gave us. The 3 yrs were wonderful and unforgetable and would stay in our hearts forever. This yr, no matter wat happen, we will all have to move on in society and in life, so wat i feel is that results are of secondary importance, its the process that bonds us together that is truly important. I do not expect much out of life, except to live it well.

To every and anyone reading the entry, treasure ppl around u. This sound cliched but after 15yrs of my life, i have found that fact to be extremely true, that we miss ppl when they are gone and regrets then are too late. So, if there is anything tht u would wan to do, do not hesitate, coz time and tide waits for no man. Its now or never and human's greatest mistake was to ever consider and miss the chance.

"Sing as though no one's listening
Dance as though no one's watching
Laugh as though u are the happiest man on Earth
Cry as though u are the opposite
Live life as though there's no tomorrow
Live life as though there's no chance for regrets"

Post 3
Human are such strange animals. They want to be idealistic and hopeful, yet at the same time practical and pragmatic. This is not strange, this is human's unique nature to be romantic
Another one month have passed without me posting anything. Here I am again trying to recap what has happened over the past 4 weeks and trying my best to do justice to the events. First major event we had was the Penang trip. It was a wondeful and enjoyable trip and the concert Jit Sin and us put us was really very zai. Guess its the holiday spirit getting into the ppl. Seriously, I've never seen RICO at such a height b4 so I hope this will carry on to many more concerts ahead.
Speaking of concerts, the next one is a triple raffles combined concert at SCH on 24 April. Well, it will be the last major concert for the Sec 4s and somehow our chinese common test falls on that day. Still, there's this common spirit among the sec4s to just give everything they had left as we know that it would be long time b4 we see RICO at such a size and standard again. We have 33 sec4s this yr and next all of them would go and RICO would be left standing on numbers hanging just above 50s including the sec1s nxt yr.
The final 100m of the race is finally on. We are lagging behind but can still catch up. Whether we get first or not is not important, whats important is that we cross the finish line and that this memory would stay with us forever. We take away only memories with us, memories of ppl especially.....

Post 4
You raise me up So i can stand on mountains
You raise me up To walk through stormy seas
I am strong When I am on your shoulders
You raise me up To more than I can be....

Yup, back again to lament on how time flies. Its now a week away from the end of our concert. hmm... interesting thought there. I just suddenly have this realisation that this concert is not as important as how some of us see it. We put in every once of energy, strength, time whatever but have we thought that perhaps after the concert, its still not the end of things? Such scary thoughts i have, must be the romantic nature of human at work again. I dunno why but i tend to read more into things that ppl see on surface level. Arhh! talking too much nonsense again.
One more week to go, and then evaluation again.

Post 5
Its not the end. The end marks a new beginning...

It's over, just over. Strangely enough, this fact seem to only sink in after a few days. The joy and delight felt was strangely kept to the minimal. We did rather well for the concert, i may say, especially for the finale. I didn't screw up for my solo:), thts one thing coz i was like rushing thru it during rehearsal. At the end, it was just over. Like a song that has no ending, it felt rather empty, though there was relieve and happiness but overally, there was just this emptiness that ran thru i think most of the sec 4s.

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost

" Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. "

"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."

The 2 lines summed up my feelings. Many years down the road, I will remember todae, not for its success but for it significance.......

The last and final part of Animal farm 2 would be out tmr. Stay tuned till then. I promise it'll be nice:)

heheh, shall start my re-posting here. First up, from "somewhen" in sec 3, combination of a series of posts

RICO farm(aka Animal Farm 2) proudly written by me(I still can't believe I actually wrote all these)

Post1
Todae ah... let me tell u a story...based on Animal Farm. ZJ is Snowball, the other candidates for chairman is Napolean, XQ is Mr Jones, the farmers are the Exco and Ben Ang...well...is Benjamin. the other animals are represented by the rest of the CO. Well the story goes like this....The animals will rebel against the farmers in 2 weeks time and Snowball and Napolean are fighting over the leadership position that would be empty after the farmers are being exiled. THe conclusion is that Snowball convinces everyone with his windmill plan and his ideology of communism and beat Napolean to the leadership position. I hereby offer my congrats to ZJ and i will do so again in 2 weeks time

Post 2
todae is...or okay, was national dae celebrations. it also marks the handover form the sec 4 to the sec 3. played with the band without score, felt veri relaxed on stage...school ended at at 1.15, 35 min after the normal time, screwed!!! had lunch, then had the handover. got position as librarian, and as expected, zongjin got the chairman position and i'm am therefore authorised to release this blog. started on my job immedialtely, didn't feel comfortable watching the photocopy lady print scores, and just standing around, guess have to get use to it. oh yeah, kevin brought a damn cute toy dino to school todae. reaction was diff with diff ppl. Deng tried to rape it on the pretext of performing CPR, zongjin tried to get it to write( forcing it to write), boon was quite facinated by it until he saw the "made in China" tag, then he threw it back to kevin, Samuel hem, just kept turning around to grab it away from kevin. a small soft toy, so many complications, but must agree that its damn CUTE!!!!! When we were giving three cheers to dunno hu, i thought i heard smone say hip hip hulei???
had dinner with zongjin and the 2 terrorist and got back home at 9.30, great record


Post 3
Half dae???? or juz another fri????yes, thats the topic of discussion for todae. I emphasize again, its a half dae and i reached home at 8.15? maybe i could have reached home earliest like 6, but still half dae???? this can be traced to mondae Promethium Dae where Old Major declared a half dae on Fri. Discussion was on on where to g on Fri. The first piece of bad news came immediately verdict swith pigs taking 1h for the education of animals after lesson ends and refusing to budge. The second came nvt dae when one of the commandments says that practise would commence as usual on Fri. There was a shout of protest (or was there not) and for the first time after Snowball's taking the lead on Animal Farm, there was discontent among the animals. Some openly voiced their protests, some made a mental note to rebel(not to come todae), Some took it in their stride just like Boxer does as they went with the maxim "Snowball is always rite" and " I will train harder" Thus again, idealists would look at this and shake their heads once more as the communist state once again fails to become reality and "democracy" is once again compromised. Animal Farm 2 has reached a turning point, building up a steady climax. How will Animal farm 2 end up? What will Snowball do? Will the animals rebel again?? Stay tuned to find out.

Post 4
I have a dream....
Martyn Luther King Jr said that for peace between the blacks and whites in America. I say that again todae for a better future for Animal Farm 2. Whether a ideal would work out depends on its ppl. If no animal takes one more grain than it should, all animals consider others before self and that all animal believes in making Animal Farm a better place, Animal Farm would have worked out. Now that its Animal Farm 2, we have another chance, thus it's up to us to topple it or realise it. Sucess or Failure?The destiny all in our hands.......

Post 5
todae's highlight is com meeting, continuing Animal Farm 2. Todae the representatives from each group of animals met up with the evicted humans. It was a rather ironic situation, now that the animals ask for advice from the humans on running the farm, though Mr Jones seems a little can be bothered. The focus todae is on Snowball on how he would conduct this meeting. It turns out that he could not make much impact as he is too democratic. The humans have warned us, democracy would get u nowhere, communism even worst, only a capitalist farm would be able to stand on its own. We have outline our programme for the farm for the nxt yr, no matter what, we would stand by our leader, Snowball, we would rise and fall with the farm. Uncertainty lays in the path of the farm, what would happen? Will democracy or even communism work? We dunno and we are going to find out.

Ending Coming Soon (actually its already posted)

Dedicated to all who know me,

As 2004 draws near to the end, I would like to take this oppurtunity to thank all that spent this meaningful year with me. You can be a passing acquaintance, a stranger or my friend, just would like to say that I appreciate your participation in my life and I look forward to continuing my relations with you in 2005. Time passes really quickly, now the 16- yr old me would be attending JC the next year. In my 4 years in RI, I really have to thank a lot of ppl, teachers included. But first of all, my circle of friends in RI, for always being there and slugging out the 4 yrs with me in the premier institution. Special mention to the 2B ppl who really made my stay in RI really enjoyable. Surprising as it seems, I seem to be more attached to the 2B ppl than the current 4D ones. Perhaps its elitism, or maybe its just me. Just felt that in the future, the chance of a 4D guy dao-ing me is much higher than a 2B one. Aniwae, back to the point, thank you all. 2nd group of ppl who I need to thank, my teachers. Special mention to a few here. Mr Joseph Wong, for turning my SS Hist from C5 in Sec 3 to A1 during prelims and of course his jokes and experiences sharing sessions. Mr Tan Puay Hock, for making me see a whole new dimension in Chinese that I never knew in my lower sec years. Mr Lee Eng Kiat, though he already left RI, for making me believe in the CO again and showing me what is true passion. Mr Mark Wee, for his antics during class, Mrs Yau, for her beautiful best-wishes card, Mrs Lim, for her blatant theories of lions eating vitamin C tablets and all that helped me b4. Well, this signifies the end of the thank-you list within RI, but there is still ppl that I need to thank.
My primary school friends who had known me for as long as 10 years, Andy, Cedrick, Justin, Bryan, Jirong, Khairul, Izzat, Iskander and so on, would be spamming if I go on. Thank you all for making the effort to keep in contact with me and to the basketball team then, thank you all for still coming down to ball occasionally. Mr Charles Peters, whom we just met during teachers' day, thank you for your guidance. Though we may go separate ways in the future, no gap is too far for us to bridge. As long as you all give me a call, I will not dao you. lol, thts it I guess for my thank-you list for all my friends this year. Will be rounding up the year with a series of re-posts and recaps, I guess, to "relive the moments".

It's amazing how depression is infectious, before you know it, it overwhelms you and you don't even know it

What started out as a outing for me ended up in emotional throes....I just couldn't explain it. When surrounded by ppl faced with rejection, one can't help but just think of one's own life. When ppl starts to throw in your face what they experienced and expects you to react, one tends to be lost. At one point, i almost wanted to say something like "What's rejection? You dun understand true pain." but i stop myself, cuz i know that i cannot comment without having experienced it myself. What I have experienced was far less but i can say much more painful. Give me dissapointment and regret, i'll choose dissapointment anyday. Regret is forever, it nags at you and never goes away, subjecting you to constant sadness....

For what flutters a 12-yr old's heart must be different from what moves a 16-yr old, one cannot expect a person's emotional state to come to a standstill at 12 yr old. A person would grow mentally and this growth is human's greatest gift and terror. How I wish that I was a 12 yr-old right now still in my primary sch and yet I wish that when I was 12 yr-old, I was as mature as I was now. How I wish time can heal all wounds including wounds of regret. Regrets forces you to look back in time and break out in tears, depriving you of the right to live.

But for what I am and what I'll be, my friends and family made me strong and made me believe again. Regret has now become a window of my memories that becomes open now and then but with the strength given to me by the ppl around me, the pain becomes less hurtful.... So to my 2 friends, do not fret coz u have nothing to regret. Live on with zest and spirit coz there's hope in tmr.... Tears might well up on a few occasions but they always dry, just make sure that no scar is left on the heart. Live life without regret...

一张文章画上了句号，代表着另一张文章的开始.....

Mediacorp's release of voting results of SG idol little comfort for Taufik fans

While earlier being bombarded by the media for not being transparent enough, Mediacorp decided to come clean with the voting results of SG idol. Taufik won by a large margin, which was not surprising to me. However, this yet provided little comfort for Taufik fans who were enraged when Sly got the recording contract from BMG. Now, they are further incensed that when Taufik was the undisputed champion, Sly got an equal share of the pie, as it seems. lol, my eplanation for this seemingly unfair treatment was covered in the previous blog. For those still unconvinced, let me draw you a clearer picture. Imagine Taufik's album among others in Europe and America. Then imagine Sly's album among others in China, Taiwan and HK. Which is more likely to come off the shelves? Anyway, just got "I dream" by Taufik from me friend. Looking for Sly's version, which i think is much better. Taufik was flat throughout the song, though he hit the high notes pretty okay...Anyone got Sly's version, please send me. Meanwhile, the lyrics....very meaningful....

I Dream

In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly

In my heart
There's a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are

Doesn't matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

If there's a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There's no defeat, if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There's a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when worlds have come apart

It doesn't matter rich or poor
Or the things you've done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream

I dream of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream