The world is confusing, misleading but intriguing at the same time....
Looong time never update. Signzz...Sec 4 yr is crazy, but fun? Well...at least its the year that most of us would make the best of, knowing that we are fighting against time. Had performance at botanical gardens todae, was okae just that we were microwaved by a whole spectrum of EM rays from the sun. Most probably the last major public performance for Sec 4s. Boo hoo hoo.... so sad. lol, if time was put on a expressway, it would most likely be trialed and jailed for reckless driving >)aiyo, todae Xunqi ask me to go RJC, i still not sure lor. There is a Merdian JC 5 mins away from my house and the practical decision should be to go there but there no CO leh...Confusion, Madness, Stress are now part of a normal human life. Luckily, spiritual release in the mordern world is easy to find and achieve or else I'll be dead>....
I dun really get what are you trying to get at. Perhaps I'm slow and I need you to spell it out. What I can say is that waiting for something to happen often prove painful and fruitless. I tried that 3 years ago and till today I still have not forgotten. If you want to do something, say something, dun wait nor hesitate, coz you will be hurting both parties. Life is so unpredictable, any day may be your last day on Earth, so live Today like there is no Tomorrow and leave Today with no regrets for Tomorrow......
"I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy"
"I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you"
"Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is"
Extracts from "Eyes On Me" by Faye Wong (FF soundtrack)
Saturday, May 22, 2004
Thursday, April 29, 2004
Its not the end. The end marks a new beginning...
It's over, just over. Strangely enough, this fact seem to only sink in after a few days. The joy and delight felt was strangely kept to the minimal. We did rather well for the concert, i may say, especially for the finale. I didn't screw up for my solo:), thts one thing coz i was like rushing thru it during rehearsal. At the end, it was just over. Like a song that has no ending, it felt rather empty, though there was relieve and happiness but overally, there was just this emptiness that ran thru i think most of the sec 4s.
THE ROAD NOT TAKEN
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
Robert Frost
" Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. "
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
The 2 lines summed up my feelings. Many years down the road, I will remember todae, not for its success but for it significance.......
It's over, just over. Strangely enough, this fact seem to only sink in after a few days. The joy and delight felt was strangely kept to the minimal. We did rather well for the concert, i may say, especially for the finale. I didn't screw up for my solo:), thts one thing coz i was like rushing thru it during rehearsal. At the end, it was just over. Like a song that has no ending, it felt rather empty, though there was relieve and happiness but overally, there was just this emptiness that ran thru i think most of the sec 4s.
THE ROAD NOT TAKEN
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
Robert Frost
" Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. "
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
The 2 lines summed up my feelings. Many years down the road, I will remember todae, not for its success but for it significance.......
Saturday, April 17, 2004
You raise me up So i can stand on mountains
You raise me up To walk through stormy seas
I am strong When I am on your shoulders
You raise me up To more than I can be....
Yup, back again to lament on how time flies. Its now a week away from the end of our concert. hmm... interesting thought there. I just suddenly have this realisation that this concert is not as important as how some of us see it. We put in every once of energy, strength, time whatever but have we thought that perhaps after the concert, its still not the end of things? Such scary thoughts i have, must be the romantic nature of human at work again. I dunno why but i tend to read more into things that ppl see on surface level. Arhh! talking too much nonsense again.
One more week to go, and then evaluation again.
You raise me up To walk through stormy seas
I am strong When I am on your shoulders
You raise me up To more than I can be....
Yup, back again to lament on how time flies. Its now a week away from the end of our concert. hmm... interesting thought there. I just suddenly have this realisation that this concert is not as important as how some of us see it. We put in every once of energy, strength, time whatever but have we thought that perhaps after the concert, its still not the end of things? Such scary thoughts i have, must be the romantic nature of human at work again. I dunno why but i tend to read more into things that ppl see on surface level. Arhh! talking too much nonsense again.
One more week to go, and then evaluation again.
Friday, April 02, 2004
Human are such strange animals. They want to be idealistic and hopeful, yet at the same time practical and pragmatic. This is not strange, this is human's unique nature to be romantic
Another one month have passed without me posting anything. Here I am again trying to recap what has happened over the past 4 weeks and trying my best to do justice to the events. First major event we had was the Penang trip. It was a wondeful and enjoyable trip and the concert Jit Sin and us put us was really very zai. Guess its the holiday spirit getting into the ppl. Seriously, I've never seen RICO at such a height b4 so I hope this will carry on to many more concerts ahead.
Speaking of concerts, the next one is a triple raffles combined concert at SCH on 24 April. Well, it will be the last major concert for the Sec 4s and somehow our chinese common test falls on that day. Still, there's this common spirit among the sec4s to just give everything they had left as we know that it would be long time b4 we see RICO at such a size and standard again. We have 33 sec4s this yr and next all of them would go and RICO would be left standing on numbers hanging just above 50s including the sec1s nxt yr.
The final 100m of the race is finally on. We are lagging behind but can still catch up. Whether we get first or not is not important, whats important is that we cross the finish line and that this memory would stay with us forever. We take away only memories with us, memories of ppl especially.....
Another one month have passed without me posting anything. Here I am again trying to recap what has happened over the past 4 weeks and trying my best to do justice to the events. First major event we had was the Penang trip. It was a wondeful and enjoyable trip and the concert Jit Sin and us put us was really very zai. Guess its the holiday spirit getting into the ppl. Seriously, I've never seen RICO at such a height b4 so I hope this will carry on to many more concerts ahead.
Speaking of concerts, the next one is a triple raffles combined concert at SCH on 24 April. Well, it will be the last major concert for the Sec 4s and somehow our chinese common test falls on that day. Still, there's this common spirit among the sec4s to just give everything they had left as we know that it would be long time b4 we see RICO at such a size and standard again. We have 33 sec4s this yr and next all of them would go and RICO would be left standing on numbers hanging just above 50s including the sec1s nxt yr.
The final 100m of the race is finally on. We are lagging behind but can still catch up. Whether we get first or not is not important, whats important is that we cross the finish line and that this memory would stay with us forever. We take away only memories with us, memories of ppl especially.....
Monday, March 01, 2004
At the speed the society progress/regress and change, our worst enemy could become our best friend and vice versa. So many ppl take things on the superficial level that it sort of eats into time and degrades them...
Reality check. Its currently 2 weeks and 2 days to our first of 2 concerts in 2 months. How do I feel? Screwed:X:X:X... Shen lao shi is coming down on Wed to "review" our standard...Once again, I'm sure we'll disappoint him and need to be prepared for another earful. Wonder if he'll get fed up with us. Still seriously looking at our dear percussion section, I think its considered a great improvement since many, many years. However, as shen lao shi said, ppl said you've improved, but thats becoz you were too lousy in the first place. lol, no one will understand what the section is going thru rite now. Its like a change that supposed to start long ago is finally starting but its members are disillusioned by the obstacles standing in front. To be able to get a percussion based piece rite in 3 months is seriously a little impossible, considering the standard of the section. Still, this memory of screwing up and hard practice would not go into bad memories, neither would it enter good memories. These are memories that we would remember and keep in our heart and it will affect our lives, the way we think, the way we view things. Like it goes "Failure is the first step towards sucess". Quoting from William Hung "I've done my best and I have no regrets."
School and CCA are just like two spheres of control of the sec4 life nowadays. Everyday, there would be pressure on u to do something, be it academic or outside ciriculam. Life becomes a cycle that we cannot break away from. We cannopt stop either, for it would mean backpedalling all the way to square one. So like boxer in animal farm, "I will work harder" to conform to such a system. Just to reflect, the 3 yrs before, I have taken from RI so much that now its like payback time, our turn to return to the sch wat it gave us. The 3 yrs were wonderful and unforgetable and would stay in our hearts forever. This yr, no matter wat happen, we will all have to move on in society and in life, so wat i feel is that results are of secondary importance, its the process that bonds us together that is truly important. I do not expect much out of life, except to live it well.
To every and anyone reading the entry, treasure ppl around u. This sound cliched but after 15yrs of my life, i have found that fact to be extremely true, that we miss ppl when they are gone and regrets then are too late. So, if there is anything tht u would wan to do, do not hesitate, coz time and tide waits for no man. Its now or never and human's greatest mistake was to ever consider and miss the chance.
"Sing as though no one's listening
Dance as though no one's watching
Laugh as though u are the happiest man on Earth
Cry as though u are the opposite
Live life as though there's no tomorrow
Live life as though there's no chance for regrets"
Reality check. Its currently 2 weeks and 2 days to our first of 2 concerts in 2 months. How do I feel? Screwed:X:X:X... Shen lao shi is coming down on Wed to "review" our standard...Once again, I'm sure we'll disappoint him and need to be prepared for another earful. Wonder if he'll get fed up with us. Still seriously looking at our dear percussion section, I think its considered a great improvement since many, many years. However, as shen lao shi said, ppl said you've improved, but thats becoz you were too lousy in the first place. lol, no one will understand what the section is going thru rite now. Its like a change that supposed to start long ago is finally starting but its members are disillusioned by the obstacles standing in front. To be able to get a percussion based piece rite in 3 months is seriously a little impossible, considering the standard of the section. Still, this memory of screwing up and hard practice would not go into bad memories, neither would it enter good memories. These are memories that we would remember and keep in our heart and it will affect our lives, the way we think, the way we view things. Like it goes "Failure is the first step towards sucess". Quoting from William Hung "I've done my best and I have no regrets."
School and CCA are just like two spheres of control of the sec4 life nowadays. Everyday, there would be pressure on u to do something, be it academic or outside ciriculam. Life becomes a cycle that we cannot break away from. We cannopt stop either, for it would mean backpedalling all the way to square one. So like boxer in animal farm, "I will work harder" to conform to such a system. Just to reflect, the 3 yrs before, I have taken from RI so much that now its like payback time, our turn to return to the sch wat it gave us. The 3 yrs were wonderful and unforgetable and would stay in our hearts forever. This yr, no matter wat happen, we will all have to move on in society and in life, so wat i feel is that results are of secondary importance, its the process that bonds us together that is truly important. I do not expect much out of life, except to live it well.
To every and anyone reading the entry, treasure ppl around u. This sound cliched but after 15yrs of my life, i have found that fact to be extremely true, that we miss ppl when they are gone and regrets then are too late. So, if there is anything tht u would wan to do, do not hesitate, coz time and tide waits for no man. Its now or never and human's greatest mistake was to ever consider and miss the chance.
"Sing as though no one's listening
Dance as though no one's watching
Laugh as though u are the happiest man on Earth
Cry as though u are the opposite
Live life as though there's no tomorrow
Live life as though there's no chance for regrets"
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