second chance

once bitten, twice... stupid...

because i will never risk losing a friend again.

Deep Thought

'Do you want to solve for the optimization of a plug flow reactor or decide your country's interest rates in the future?'

'Neither'

'Then what the f*** are you doing in chem eng and econs?'

'Good qn, i'll think about that.'

never been better, never been worse

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1. The entry that stood out amongst all the rest in my visitor counter. (edited of course to take away the IP add) Thanks jloh for all the love from CMU.


2. new laptop, samsung r420 from comex at a cheap cheap 949 bucks =)

3. As suggested by the title, I'm having a hell of my time in uni --> and the question i like to ask is why does all this lead to? I realised that my answer is that i dun know and worse still, i dun really care.

4. I dun know whether there is a saturation point for energy, cos it's like meeting new people and trying new stuff don't excite me anymore. It's like after a while, based on thin-slicing abilities of a 10sec intro by another person, i've already plotted his/her possiblities in different aspects of my life in uni. The scary thing is that it's freaking pretty accurate(think of the last time your first impression failed you when you delibrately thin-slice someone else) and the disappointing thing is that every other person falls into the same few boring catergories. We need to ban stereotypes in uni. Peroid.

5. If you didn't understand the previous post, dun worry, i'm having trouble trying to interpret it myself also.

6. My last meaningful conversation was on the topic of the idealism of marriage, and so here goes something that struck me after the convo, from movie definitely maybe

The defining scene of Definitely Maybe

Will Hayes: Will you... um... marry me?
April: No. What do you mean, 'Will you, um, marry me?' I haven't seen you in weeks! You don't look happy or excited about the prospect of our marriage! You're asking me to give up my - my freedom, my joie de vivre for an institution that fails as often as it succeeds? And why should I marry you anyway? I mean, why do you wanna marry me? Besides some bourgeois desire to fulfill an ideal that society embeds in us from an early age to promote a consumer capitalist agenda?
Will Hayes: Oh! Oh, my God.
April: You should've got on your knee.
Will Hayes: Just shut up! Here - I wanna marry you because you're the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only one I wanna kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn't imagine not being able to hold them. But mainly, when you love someone as much as I love you, getting married is the only thing left to do. So, will you, um, marry me?
April: Definitely. Maybe.


April's first reply was ouch ouch ouch.

如烟

有沒有那麼一種永遠　永遠不改變　擁抱過的美麗都　再也不破碎
讓險峻歲月不能在臉上撒野　讓生離和死別都遙遠　有誰能聽見

就这样, 一眨眼间就过去了
我再怎么不舍, 也只剩下回忆可以参考

有沒有那麼一滴眼淚　能洗掉後悔　化成大雨降落在　回不去的街
再給我一次機會　將故事改寫　還欠了他一生的　一句抱歉

为什么看着你, 我心里留下的是亏欠和无奈
为设么看着你, 我只能说'对不起', 总说不出'谢谢你'

有沒有那麼一個世界　永遠不天黑　星星太陽萬物都　聽我的指揮
月亮不忙著圓缺　春天不走遠　樹梢緊緊擁抱著樹葉　有誰能聽見

忙,忙,忙..... 似乎是在找借口麻醉自己
以为骗了全世界的人很伟大， 但最后却骗不了自己

有沒有那麼一朵玫瑰　永遠不凋謝　永遠驕傲和完美　永遠不妥協
為何人生最後會像一張紙屑　還不如一片花瓣曾經鮮豔

我曾以为'永远' 和'一定' 是神圣的
但日子久了, 看到的谎言也多了,说的谎言也多了
永远好像有了期限 - 几个月, 几年?

有沒有那麼一張書籤　停止那一天　最單純的笑臉和　最美那一年
書包裡面裝滿了蛋糕和汽水　雙眼只有無猜和無邪　讓我們無法無天

当熟悉的音乐响起 , 熟悉的回忆也被勾起
大声地唱着那年的歌, 毫无保留地掉下眼泪

有沒有那麼一首詩篇　找不到句點　青春永遠定居在　我們的歲月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋　笑忘人間的苦痛　只有甜美

庆幸的是那时的场地一片黑暗,
让你看不到我掉下的眼泪
清亮的歌声与我哽咽的感动
交融在一片蓝色的荧光海中
已是我最大的慰藉了

有沒有那麼一個明天　重頭回一遍　讓我再次感受曾　揮霍的昨天
無論生存或生活　我都不浪費　不讓故事這麼的後悔

我试着设想能够让时间倒流的那一天
但我发现这都是多余的
因为现在的你是最快乐的,,,, 去飞翔吧

我从来都不说那种‘如果时间能够倒流‘的话，....
因为...., 时间若真的能倒流.....
这一切就不会那么的珍贵..... (五月天)

drunk on air

alcohol is definitely not my friend... i wonder why everyone is hype-ing bout highs you get after drinking when all i can manage is just a sinking feeling. I prefer just breathing in air, with my earphones plugged in. =)