风吹落最后一片叶
我的心也飘着雪
爱只能往回忆里堆叠
oh~给下个季节
忽然间树梢冒花蕊
我怎么会都没有感觉
oh~整条街都是恋爱的人
我独自走在暖风的夜

多想要向过去告别
当季节不停更迭
oh~却还是少一点坚决
在这寂寞的季节

艳阳高照在那海边
爱情盛开的世界
远远看著热闹一切
oh~我记得那狂烈
窗外是快枯黄的叶
感伤在心中有一些
oh~我了解那些爱过的人
心是如何慢慢在凋谢

多想要向过去告别
当季节不停更迭
oh~却永远少一点坚决
在这寂寞的季节

又走过风吹的冷冽
最后一盏灯熄灭
从回忆我慢慢穿越
在这寂寞的季节
还是寂寞的季节
一样寂寞的季节

hmm.... i find the atmosphere created by this song almost intoxicating? haha... think it's one of the songs that you can easily hum along when you are not in the best of your moods and maybe it'll cheer you up a little....

bleah... sprained my left wrist during soc, so i'm out of action until the x-ray and review on mon... hmm... my first vist to the MO was pretty interesting, talked to him bout jc/army life, scholarships, unis and stuff.... aslc's pretty okay i guess, esp when ur sect comd enlisted only 3 months b4 you and is also a NSF... But well, with every passing day in the army, I'm still getting more cynical - where's the meritocracy?!

Sometimes, i guess happiness comes from seeing others happy, esp when u are in a position where there's nothing really worth it for you to fight for....
笑着哭虽然痛， 但至少你知道你没阻扰别人的幸福，也没增加别人的不快乐.....
知足吧....

same old story of so much to do, so little time left..... haiz...

Life has its unique way of making fun of people. Lesson learnt: Do not hate others for what they did wrong against you, for life has an interesting way of invoking karma- tht is by making you do the same thing as wat they did to you in the first place.... Forgiveness is the key, but too bad forgiving requires precise timing and time would not turn back just for one man. Oh well... then let's just start from this moment by.... forgiving myself.

All I needed was a reason. But now, the importance of it has diminished. All I want now is release- to break free.....

是你决定我的伤心...

pardon the sound quality but it's the only version on youtube...

The past week was extremely..... interesting... haha, my command of english has deproved to such a state where I can't find the appropiate adjectives to describe what i want to describe.... So wat happened? It's the end of course for the bslc ppl in sispec.. The night b4 graduation day, we started our 28km route march and at the end of it, was suffering from abrasion, blisters and a sprained ankle... lol, tht's wat u get when u have a red beret OC leading u on the march... But well, the little tour we took through NTU was pretty nice and refreshing, so much different from the rows upon rows upon rows of trees that we are so used to seeing. After the march, we had the graduation parade in FBO. Interestingly, we were being observed by a bunch of NCC boys and girls that I have no idea why they are there in the first place. Then, the rest of the day was given up to "out-processing" otherwise also known as productive time-wasting. The verdict(posting order) came at the end of the day, just when we were about to book out. ASLC for me, which came as an interesting surprise coz the platoon best didn't make it there but i did 0_o I did say i was immune to everything thrown at me in the army already but with the hours without sleep standing at 36 and counting, the final straw came when they extended our book-out timing by3 hours to do in-processing into out new aslc coy. So in the end, booked out at nearly 10pm, reached home near 12, was so tired tht I couldn't even walk straight after getting down from the taxi...

next day was vesak day, was supposed to meet the class for movie at the cathay. Ended up being late cos of *looks above... Pirates was good, the soundtrack was fantastic as usual.. Hans Zimmer at his usual best... lol... just noticed it though, the pirates soundtrack sounds a little like Gladiators one, no? haha... but well, both are by Hans Zimmer so i guess there's no problem with plagerism and stuff... Hmm... went to suki for lunch after the movie and i had hurry home to book in at a super early 1830 for drill com prac, yes with a sprained ankle... Supposedly last event of the course is sispec anniversary day, which was transformed into our games day... Golf coy in the end swept most of the events, i'm still wondering how we won drill com and yes if u are wondering, i took part with a sprained ankle, so either others are super lousy or i'm super good. I'm inclined to think the latter... haha... The commanders then pilfered the wine from the hampers tht we won b4 letting us book out. For the drill com, it was a XO and a chardonnay which i guessed made up for 90% of the cost of the hamper.... haha.... Then while everyone booked out with "Happily Ever After" look on their faces, the aslc ppl had "To Be Continued" on their faces and the ocs crossovers from my platoon (i dunno bout others) had "The End" look on their faces...

On sat, started my music therapy programme by going for a concert.... been eons since i went for one. Went for SYCO's concert, unlike lucky kwan who went for mayday's one ( can sense the envy creeping in) haha, no lar... First, i won't bear to part with the sum of money needed to buy their tics considering my "pay" and secondly, i won't be able to confirm whether i'll be there 2 months in advance. lol, it was good tht i went for SYCO's concert though, cos it triggered the CO fever again... haha.... now i'm spamming co songs, pirates soundtrack, mandopop on my com. It's like back to the good old schooling days- CO madness + a little from everywhere else... haha...

kk... guess i'm done with the narrating, it'll be a long time till u see such a long narration ba, at least 11 weeks... yup, ironically, i'm going taiwan for training for my next course so i guess i won't be in sg for most of july. Why or how is it ironic shall be known to no one but me and myself, but well reading paulo coelho is starting to impact me. "When u wan something, all in the universe conspires in helping u achieve it" If u believe in tht, then nothing would be able to get u down... Meanwhile, if u dun understand any of the above, u can pray tht no stray fighter jets crash into military bases while i'm there..... lol..

Leaving you all with a super "high" song. A collaboration btw FIR , STephanie sun and mayDAY
FIRST DAY

下过雨的
夏天傍晚
我都会期待
唱歌的蝉嘿
把星星都吵醒
月光晒了很凉快

就是这样回忆起来
第一次告白(初次告白)
尴尬的我
看爱装得很哲学的你其实很可爱
你说活在明天活在期待
不如活得今天很自在
我说我懂了
会不会太快
未来第一天要展开

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂

你很搞笑
你很奇怪
你头发很乱
有的时候你
突会为我的事情变得很勇敢
这么说来
很不单纯你陪我看海
海那么蓝
我又好像不应该把你想得有点坏

坏的是我发现不知不觉
不见到你不是很习惯
你的眼神里好像也期待
期待不一样的未来

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂

蓝色的海(阿信:蓝色的海)
海上的云(飞:海上的云)
云的那端(阿信:云的那端)
不转弯(飞:不转弯)
到未来(阿信:到未来)

你说活在明天活在期待
不如活得今天很自在
我说我懂了会不会太快
未来第一天要展开

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅
快站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂
永远那么灿烂
永远那么灿烂
first day first day first day first day first day today everyday first day

enjoy!

Past week had been a rollercoaster ride... It's funny how life has a way of taking away things that are rightfully yours and compensating them with things that are not rightfully yours... Passing out and getting out of sispec (hopefully) in 3 days time, and i realise tht the past 10 weeks had little or no impact on me, lest to make me more cynical and unappreciative of the system... well... 4 and a half months down, 1 and a half more yrs to go....

Hmm... at one of the lowest points of the rollercoaster ride i had in camp, i put on my headphones and plugged in 933... 五月天's 让我照顾你 was playing.... and it made everything feel and look better.... haha... mayday rocks!

坐在我身旁你的心伤
不懂我也不想
但你的眼泪下在我心脏
回家的太阳红着眼框
心疼你的模样
影子的悲伤也变得更长

昨天谁让你受过伤
今天想要让你都遗忘

是你爱你让我变的更强
为你战斗永不投降
让我照顾你
我要让雨停出太阳

我超越我自己的想象
风雨刀枪能为你挡
让我照顾你
让你未来放在我肩上

新的冷笑话巧克力糖
开始为你收藏
最近连睡觉手机也在手上
幻想着未来满头白发
公园的长椅上你也许会说一声谢谢我

如果这一生到尽头
换你的这句话很足够

是你爱你让我变的更强
为你战斗永不投降
让我照顾你
我要让雨停出太阳

我超越我自己的想象
风雨刀枪能为你挡
让我照顾你
为你失去生命也辉煌

是你爱你让我变的更强
为你战斗永不投降
让我照顾你
我要让雨停出太阳

我超越我自己的想象
风雨刀枪能为你挡
让我照顾你
让你未来放在我肩上

[五月天- 让我照顾你]