The past week was extremely..... interesting... haha, my command of english has deproved to such a state where I can't find the appropiate adjectives to describe what i want to describe.... So wat happened? It's the end of course for the bslc ppl in sispec.. The night b4 graduation day, we started our 28km route march and at the end of it, was suffering from abrasion, blisters and a sprained ankle... lol, tht's wat u get when u have a red beret OC leading u on the march... But well, the little tour we took through NTU was pretty nice and refreshing, so much different from the rows upon rows upon rows of trees that we are so used to seeing. After the march, we had the graduation parade in FBO. Interestingly, we were being observed by a bunch of NCC boys and girls that I have no idea why they are there in the first place. Then, the rest of the day was given up to "out-processing" otherwise also known as productive time-wasting. The verdict(posting order) came at the end of the day, just when we were about to book out. ASLC for me, which came as an interesting surprise coz the platoon best didn't make it there but i did 0_o I did say i was immune to everything thrown at me in the army already but with the hours without sleep standing at 36 and counting, the final straw came when they extended our book-out timing by3 hours to do in-processing into out new aslc coy. So in the end, booked out at nearly 10pm, reached home near 12, was so tired tht I couldn't even walk straight after getting down from the taxi...

next day was vesak day, was supposed to meet the class for movie at the cathay. Ended up being late cos of *looks above... Pirates was good, the soundtrack was fantastic as usual.. Hans Zimmer at his usual best... lol... just noticed it though, the pirates soundtrack sounds a little like Gladiators one, no? haha... but well, both are by Hans Zimmer so i guess there's no problem with plagerism and stuff... Hmm... went to suki for lunch after the movie and i had hurry home to book in at a super early 1830 for drill com prac, yes with a sprained ankle... Supposedly last event of the course is sispec anniversary day, which was transformed into our games day... Golf coy in the end swept most of the events, i'm still wondering how we won drill com and yes if u are wondering, i took part with a sprained ankle, so either others are super lousy or i'm super good. I'm inclined to think the latter... haha... The commanders then pilfered the wine from the hampers tht we won b4 letting us book out. For the drill com, it was a XO and a chardonnay which i guessed made up for 90% of the cost of the hamper.... haha.... Then while everyone booked out with "Happily Ever After" look on their faces, the aslc ppl had "To Be Continued" on their faces and the ocs crossovers from my platoon (i dunno bout others) had "The End" look on their faces...

On sat, started my music therapy programme by going for a concert.... been eons since i went for one. Went for SYCO's concert, unlike lucky kwan who went for mayday's one ( can sense the envy creeping in) haha, no lar... First, i won't bear to part with the sum of money needed to buy their tics considering my "pay" and secondly, i won't be able to confirm whether i'll be there 2 months in advance. lol, it was good tht i went for SYCO's concert though, cos it triggered the CO fever again... haha.... now i'm spamming co songs, pirates soundtrack, mandopop on my com. It's like back to the good old schooling days- CO madness + a little from everywhere else... haha...

kk... guess i'm done with the narrating, it'll be a long time till u see such a long narration ba, at least 11 weeks... yup, ironically, i'm going taiwan for training for my next course so i guess i won't be in sg for most of july. Why or how is it ironic shall be known to no one but me and myself, but well reading paulo coelho is starting to impact me. "When u wan something, all in the universe conspires in helping u achieve it" If u believe in tht, then nothing would be able to get u down... Meanwhile, if u dun understand any of the above, u can pray tht no stray fighter jets crash into military bases while i'm there..... lol..

Leaving you all with a super "high" song. A collaboration btw FIR , STephanie sun and mayDAY
FIRST DAY

下过雨的
夏天傍晚
我都会期待
唱歌的蝉嘿
把星星都吵醒
月光晒了很凉快

就是这样回忆起来
第一次告白(初次告白)
尴尬的我
看爱装得很哲学的你其实很可爱
你说活在明天活在期待
不如活得今天很自在
我说我懂了
会不会太快
未来第一天要展开

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂

你很搞笑
你很奇怪
你头发很乱
有的时候你
突会为我的事情变得很勇敢
这么说来
很不单纯你陪我看海
海那么蓝
我又好像不应该把你想得有点坏

坏的是我发现不知不觉
不见到你不是很习惯
你的眼神里好像也期待
期待不一样的未来

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂

蓝色的海(阿信:蓝色的海)
海上的云(飞:海上的云)
云的那端(阿信:云的那端)
不转弯(飞:不转弯)
到未来(阿信:到未来)

你说活在明天活在期待
不如活得今天很自在
我说我懂了会不会太快
未来第一天要展开

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅
快站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂
永远那么灿烂
永远那么灿烂
first day first day first day first day first day today everyday first day

enjoy!

Past week had been a rollercoaster ride... It's funny how life has a way of taking away things that are rightfully yours and compensating them with things that are not rightfully yours... Passing out and getting out of sispec (hopefully) in 3 days time, and i realise tht the past 10 weeks had little or no impact on me, lest to make me more cynical and unappreciative of the system... well... 4 and a half months down, 1 and a half more yrs to go....

Hmm... at one of the lowest points of the rollercoaster ride i had in camp, i put on my headphones and plugged in 933... 五月天's 让我照顾你 was playing.... and it made everything feel and look better.... haha... mayday rocks!

坐在我身旁你的心伤
不懂我也不想
但你的眼泪下在我心脏
回家的太阳红着眼框
心疼你的模样
影子的悲伤也变得更长

昨天谁让你受过伤
今天想要让你都遗忘

是你爱你让我变的更强
为你战斗永不投降
让我照顾你
我要让雨停出太阳

我超越我自己的想象
风雨刀枪能为你挡
让我照顾你
让你未来放在我肩上

新的冷笑话巧克力糖
开始为你收藏
最近连睡觉手机也在手上
幻想着未来满头白发
公园的长椅上你也许会说一声谢谢我

如果这一生到尽头
换你的这句话很足够

是你爱你让我变的更强
为你战斗永不投降
让我照顾你
我要让雨停出太阳

我超越我自己的想象
风雨刀枪能为你挡
让我照顾你
为你失去生命也辉煌

是你爱你让我变的更强
为你战斗永不投降
让我照顾你
我要让雨停出太阳

我超越我自己的想象
风雨刀枪能为你挡
让我照顾你
让你未来放在我肩上

[五月天- 让我照顾你]

每年深秋我总要说
happy birthday 祝福你
而这首歌 just for you

这是为你写的歌
在我们不再是恋人的多年以后
我试著回忆已泛黄的你
什么原因叫我离你而去
往事却不复记忆
对我来说总有些心悸
虽然世故的我并不想拥有什么
就让我停留让我停留在满布尘埃的旧信笺里
而你依然是你

在曾是属于我们的年少时光里
尘封中的回忆竟亮丽如昔
却怎么也不能看清你的眼睛
也许是曾经失去曾经伤心
教我迷惘的忘记你就不顾再提起

每年深秋我总要说happy birthday
祝福你而这首歌 just for you
just for you

taiwan jet plane crashes into milltary base, killing 2 sg soldiers and injuring 9 others... The only reason I'm concerned with this news - a bright and promising nsf reduced to a mere statistic. A few months from now, no one would remember his name, his face, his potential. All that is left
are statistics - 2 died, 9 injured. And these stats would be repeated many many times by the anti-ns ppl who champion apparently freedom and justice of the civillian and the millitary officers trying to teach the textbook example of "unforseen circumstances". His name, his face and what he could have been would not be relevant then. Ironically, the organisation is responsible for none of this... It's human nature and it seems so normal until u realise that it's like a lottery, it could have very well been you instead of him and that what he missed out on is what everyone of us yearn for - freedom and justice.....

有多久没见你
以为你在那里
原来就住在我的心
底陪伴着我的呼吸

有多远的距离
以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长
回头就看到你

过去让它过去来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹

总是想再见你
还试着打探你的消息
原来你就住在我的身体
守护我的回忆

[林晓培－心动］
真得很想说出来，但始终觉得自己没有这个权力和勇气去要求一个不属于自己的东西
过去就让它过去？