Wow...I was in for a surprise when i checked the traffic of my blog. Apparently, ppl came to this blog after searching stuff like "Mr Dave Sim" and "zongjin"....lolz, wonder if thts wat miss wong was talking about the other day, teachers searching their own names in hope of finding their students' blog. As to why zj's name was plugged into a search engine, i can only leave it up to u all to speculate.

The walk to the beach was tedious and long. I dragged my exhausted body and mind across the cold hard pavement. A strong wind was blowing, dark clouds at a distance warned of an approaching storm, but I persisted.
The beach was empty, the usual sunny cheerful outlook was gone, instead shadows of memories haunt the place. The thunder sounded, seemingly to remind me of the approaching storm. Soon enough, the sky was overcast and of a monotonous grey-black colour. Still, I refused to leave. I stood facing the sea.... facing the gale and the waves.
All of a sudden, the air was still...the waves stopped. All was quiet and peaceful. The calm before the storm as they call it. It was the most beautiful moment in my life. One could feel the sheer presence of the unstable equibrillum and it was just so rare, so unique, so special.
A gentle wind started to blow and was trasnformed to a gale within seconds. At the horizon, the curtain of rain started to make its way towards the beach. Just like dominoes falling, it approached at immense velocity. Still, I stood my ground, refusing to budge. As the storm swept across the beach, all hell broke loose. Raindrops hit down hard across my face and waves smashed repeatedly on the beach. My heart was shattered and swept away by the merciless waves, leaving behind an empty shell whose tears were drowned out by the raindrops.

What if, just what if, I had repeated the same mistake while trying to prevent it?

Just changed my bg music yet again. This time is a song tht i went crazy over these few days. "future" by S.E.N.S... or more fondly known as the continuation of forbidden love. The melody starts off with the main theme, solemn, bringing over the theme of it being "forbidden". The whole song is just like a story, like 2 lovers who shares a forbidden love. Therefore, the first part of the song is sad and heart-wrenching, showing the fruastration of the lovers of not being able to be together. The melody then complicates, showing the trials and tribulations they faced. Moving on, when u hear the first cymbal crash, its like the star-crossed lovers overcoming all odds to be together. Their hopes, their ideals, their fantasies are all presented. They no longer worry about the past and look forward to the future, carrying high hopes. When the music goes up 1 key, its like all the hopes and dreams culminating into an overture of happiness. Melody here is unrestrained and truly represents the future, hence the title.... I was captivated by this song as it seems to truly reflect wat i am going through- trying to turn my hopes and dreams into an overture of happiness.... all first-time listeners of the song should be deeply touched by the part when the melody changes key...if u are not, use headphones(note- not earphones)

lol, RJ does not accept blank vote....which only continue to show how screwed up the system is...blah...

It seems that the only way to fly.....is to believe in your dreams

"When will u let go?" I face this problem everyday and yet i do not have an answer. Once, i tot tht i did it, i tot i could put down the burden, but i was proven utterly wrong. Since then, i lost my courage and avoided the problem altogether. Life goes on as usual, but there seems to be something missing within me....

Nostalgia is a weakness....Regret is a vulnerability... To protect urself, apathy is the best solution... but it does take some things away from u... Feelings are no longer expressions, they become tools... A smile hides a knife...tears are just a far more effective replacement for persuasive words... To quote, friendship is nothing but a mutual contract of bilateral interests, once the relationship of interests cease to exist, friendship is just trendy jargon invented by idealistic ppl to descibe a non-existent relationship

Fri
Short day... nothing much happened during sch hours...went to CO room after sch to wait for deng and xl to finish. Wanted to go out for lunch but was raining so ate in sch. Somehow, i got half-drenched by being a good guy and offering to ferry junyi to RI and deng had another umbrella which would have left both of us dry. Stupid deng..(nvm shall elaborate on deng later) After lunch had sectionals, 1st proper sectionals we had since the term 1 and perhaps the one conducted by lao zhou. At 5.30, rushed over to bridge to play a few games b4 going for dinner. ah ha, dinner deserves another paragraph. so lets hop down.

While walking, we called deng up. He said he was at S11 playground and would wait for us there. Speculations arose pretty quickly. I hypothesized a "replay telecast" of di hong at band concert, vin and xl were thinking of a group of ppl. Then, when we reached S11 playground, we could not find him. Called him up and started scanning the surroundings. Finally, we took 2 steps forward and turned right to look into the playground and boy were we shocked. One guy and girl sitting inside (i repeat inside) a cube-like structure facing each other. Blackout sia, lightbulb so bright until fuse break... The guy waved at us and we turned 180degrees and walked off in the opposite direction.
aha, so after dinner, we stoned at S11 and a "chemistry experiment"(note: chemistry not chem) was conducted. Deng's phone was "hijacked" and a message was sent 2 ppl, a guy and a girl. The content of the message was one of expressing a love interest. The reply from the guy was sharp and sweet, "wtf". The reply from the girl was less harsh, "wat talking u" and we were talking about how deng had to dash her hopes by replying immediately to clear up the "misunderstanding". wat follows are my speculations: deng was reluctant to let us send the message, but he seems reluctant to try to rescue his "hijacked" phone, which we can infer....(shall leave it up to u to infer)... Hopefully, our little experiment did them more good than harm, for they can take this chance to perhaps rethink and redefine their relationships and possibilities, i'm not suggesting anything just tht this kind of reality check do not happen often so they should really make use of it.
(disclaimer: the above is a candid opinion on wat happened. It is NOT a scandal.)

after all tht nonsense, went to buy bubble tea and walked to bishan cc in search for a condusive environent to talk though deng might disagree (Obviously to him the playground is more condusive:)) Found a playground there and invaded it, sitting down to crap. Crapped about sch life todae, in general, everyone agreed tht sch hours are the worst time and for the 3 of us from CO, we agreed tht CO is the only thing keeping us alive in RJ. Class seems to take a more background role compared to secondary sch. At 9.30, zj took out his gaohu and started playing. Played forbidden love which sounded eerie in the cold night air. At 10, the weekly meeting was finally concluded and we went home...

oh... I'm so "informed" to make an "informed choice" after council campaigning for the past 2 days tht i decide tht everyone is not up to mark and thus receive 0 votes from me. and i made a mistake in the post earlier on, u only have 30 secs to judge a person, not 3 mins. The list of candidates they shortlisted also makes me question the intergrity of the interview....lolz... just a piece of advice to ppl voting, exercise responsibility. If u are thinking of voting for a new-found friend cos he/she is nice, think again. There is a subtle but significant difference between a nice person and a good leader.
But i shall again contradict my own argument. U all can vote in anyway u wan, coz council seems to be so elusive. Whether a person is a councillor or not would probably not have much effect on u, unless tht person is vying with u for a CCA position.
Or else, u can join me in a blank-vote movement:)
In any case, i shall remain apathetic and indifferent to whatever u all do. When results are revealed, i guess i won't be able to tell a councillor from a non-councillor. There are 2 ways of interpreting this, i shall leave it up to u to choose...